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FUCK. IT.
I just typed a crapload of shiznit TWICE but Livejournal went and screw things up so all my utterings are now gone, forgotten. I took one whole hour to pen all that but in the end nothing comes out. NOTHING. Zilch. Nada. ZIP.
FUCK. IT. ALL.
I am sick. I am simply and utterly sick and tired of trying so hard and inserting SO much effort into things and receive absolutely NOTHING in the end. I'm tired of being shortchanged of late, I'm tired of trying so hard. I'm tired of hoping, I'm tired of dreaming. I'm beat. I'm exhausted. God, does it NOT look like I need a nice clean break?
I try so hard all the time, but at the end of the day, I get nothing. Just nothing.
And I'm not just talking about typing and posting some goddamned entry.
I don't believe I'm written anything so depressing and morbid before, but there's a first for everything, right?
DON'T answer that.
I just typed a crapload of shiznit TWICE but Livejournal went and screw things up so all my utterings are now gone, forgotten. I took one whole hour to pen all that but in the end nothing comes out. NOTHING. Zilch. Nada. ZIP.
FUCK. IT. ALL.
I am sick. I am simply and utterly sick and tired of trying so hard and inserting SO much effort into things and receive absolutely NOTHING in the end. I'm tired of being shortchanged of late, I'm tired of trying so hard. I'm tired of hoping, I'm tired of dreaming. I'm beat. I'm exhausted. God, does it NOT look like I need a nice clean break?
I try so hard all the time, but at the end of the day, I get nothing. Just nothing.
And I'm not just talking about typing and posting some goddamned entry.
I don't believe I'm written anything so depressing and morbid before, but there's a first for everything, right?
DON'T answer that.