bad weekend10-8-05
I've never felt so helpess and lonely in my life. I wrote about what happened in my blog, but it gets more personal and deeper in here. Dave called on Friday and made it clear he was disgusted with me because he found out about the other man I was dating. It didn't really bother me because we both were aware we are just friends and that has always been Dave's decision. So we didn't speak on Friday. On Saturday he helped a little bit with my car and offered to give me a ride back to LB. We talked a little, but he can't seem to get over the fact I've moved on.
When I'm in trouble, the first person I call in my mom. She always makes me feel better, but her phone was off all day. She finally called me back in the evening just to inform me she's with her boyfriend and turned her phone off because she didn't have a charger with her. I know that's the truth, but in my mind her phone was off because she was in Columbus with Brent. In other words, she was with Brent instead of me and wasn't there for me because of him. So after feeling unwanted by her, the floodgates opened up and I was truly in despair. I hadn't cried that hard in so long. I need to talk to her about all this.
Well I have so much to do today, so I best be on my way.
When I'm in trouble, the first person I call in my mom. She always makes me feel better, but her phone was off all day. She finally called me back in the evening just to inform me she's with her boyfriend and turned her phone off because she didn't have a charger with her. I know that's the truth, but in my mind her phone was off because she was in Columbus with Brent. In other words, she was with Brent instead of me and wasn't there for me because of him. So after feeling unwanted by her, the floodgates opened up and I was truly in despair. I hadn't cried that hard in so long. I need to talk to her about all this.
Well I have so much to do today, so I best be on my way.