Trying to let myself rest
I ended up being too tired to read much last night, I just went to bed rather early. I slept well and some of the sleep debt is paid now. I still feel very tired, though. Outside it's pretty though cold, and a part of me would like to go out and do things, a part of me is just too tired for anything today. I think I'd better take today very easy (though I will go outdoors, it usually revives me), and maybe tomorrow I'll have energy to be a little more active. But it's been such a tiring few weeks, I deserve a restful weekend.
There was just a little robin that flew on my balcony, sat on the balcony chair and looked at me. And right now a squirrel is climbing in one of the trees. I do love it that my current home is so close to nature, even if real forests the kind that I'm used to are still some distance away.
There's a lot that I want to do. I want to write here about things, ranging from upcoming musical productions in Finland and Europe to more sexual orientation stuff to politics (we had an election here and the results are not very happy). I want to write posts to add-me communities to get to know new people. I want to start a blog in Finnish so I can get to know more people in this country, too. (Though I really also wanted to start this English blog, because no matter how many good things there are about this country and how liberal it is on the grand scale of all the countries in the world, there is a rather oppressive atmosphere of sameness here, and I get desperate to stay in regular contact with people from other countries so that I keep a perspective of things being able to be different. When I was a kid, books gave me that, but the internet and social media have been golden in helping me keep in touch with a wider world.) I want to write letters and read books and make my home neater and join the political party I support because they didn't do well in the election and I want to take part in forming this society closer to something I want. But right now I mostly want to wrap myself up in quiet and rest.
And go for a walk and work on my novel. I think those are the two things I can do today, in addition to meeting my friend for Into the Woods. And seeing how much I've done in the past weeks, that certainly is well enough for one day.
There was just a little robin that flew on my balcony, sat on the balcony chair and looked at me. And right now a squirrel is climbing in one of the trees. I do love it that my current home is so close to nature, even if real forests the kind that I'm used to are still some distance away.
There's a lot that I want to do. I want to write here about things, ranging from upcoming musical productions in Finland and Europe to more sexual orientation stuff to politics (we had an election here and the results are not very happy). I want to write posts to add-me communities to get to know new people. I want to start a blog in Finnish so I can get to know more people in this country, too. (Though I really also wanted to start this English blog, because no matter how many good things there are about this country and how liberal it is on the grand scale of all the countries in the world, there is a rather oppressive atmosphere of sameness here, and I get desperate to stay in regular contact with people from other countries so that I keep a perspective of things being able to be different. When I was a kid, books gave me that, but the internet and social media have been golden in helping me keep in touch with a wider world.) I want to write letters and read books and make my home neater and join the political party I support because they didn't do well in the election and I want to take part in forming this society closer to something I want. But right now I mostly want to wrap myself up in quiet and rest.
And go for a walk and work on my novel. I think those are the two things I can do today, in addition to meeting my friend for Into the Woods. And seeing how much I've done in the past weeks, that certainly is well enough for one day.