Tea & Sympathy
I think I'm getting a little ill. Stuffy nose, sore throat, coughcoughcough. It always happens around Christmastime, I guess. Let's put it down to the stress. There's an abundance of that around, ripe for the blaming.
That being said, I can't remember the last time I was this happy. It's no secret that, in the month leading up to our break-up, Travis and I were not happy together. My parents have told me I never smiled any more, laughs were scarce, I just appeared miserable. I guess I was, I just didn't want to accept it. When I'm with Davin, I can't not be happy. I had no idea where it was going when we started dating, I really didn't. But now... we share secrets, we talk about everything, he makes me laugh. He tells me I'm beautiful, and it's been a really long time since anyone has told me that. It's only been two weeks, and he already makes me happier than I can ever remember being with Travis. I don't know, maybe I was this happy at some point, but I really can't remember it any more. The little things excite me. We went shopping, and he allowed me to convince him to buy a Christmas tree and decorations and put them up in his house. And when people visit, he shows them the tree and says "Like my Christmas tree? My girlfriend, Amelia, set that up for me". It's like he's so proud to call me his girlfriend. He's wonderful.
It's my birthday on Monday. Unfortunately Amanda&Mark&Sam won't be here, and neither will Daddy, or Davin. But that's okay! I think we might have a family barbeque on Saturday, that will be nice :-) I'm excited, but it seems really old. Haha! Nineteen... obviously, it's not really old. But it's a big step. My 19th year will be the best yet. I've set my heart on it.
I've been writing a lot of songs lately. They're mainly gibberish, but we'll see what comes of them.