devastated
i write this entry with a heavy heart. jeff's dog zappa passed away last night. we think he passed away in his sleep so we're hoping the pain was minimal. he has been deteriorating this past week, which prompted a visit to the vet's on saturday. they said his kidneys and liver were failing - they attempted to inject fluid into his skin hoping that would help hydrate him and bring about healing. however, he got much worse. he stopped walking around, drinking, eating...just stopped being our zappa. even though he was in such pain and couldn't stand, he even tried to bring himself to go outside to poop...but then collapsed and jeff had to carry him back inside. last night, jeff laid by his bed most of the night and this morning i woke up and he was gone. i've never seen jeff so devastated - he's had zappa for sixteen years and before you ask, having an old dog doesn't make you prepared for the time that they die. we had to throw his bed away, which left an empty spot on our bedroom floor that both of us just can't look at without bawling. we miss our zappa and hope that he's in some doggy heaven humping hot doggy ladies and enjoying an endless steak buffet. our house won't be the same without you, old man