Here I am
You know what I've just figured out about myself? I would much prefer to talk to others through writing. That is not to say I don't enjoy people's company, but written words feel more sincere. Of course, that all depends on who puts them down. For me, I mean what I say. There's less chance of the meaning of my message being distorted with a look of the eye or a change in tone. There is simply what I have said. It is simply what I meant to have said. People tend to take spoken words and bend them, change a thing or two and alter the entire message. Here is proof. No one can change the words here or twist them. Perhaps it is because I have become so reclusive - a fact in which many of you were right and I just refused to accept - that I cannot bear to have so many eyes upon me. Words do not come from my mouth as they should. It is a change I both embrace and regret. I love it simply because I only speak when I feel it necessary. I hate it because it makes me feel distant from everyone. Don't take it personally, though, if you are sitting by me and I don't say a word. It is not an insult and it is not that I don't enjoy your company. I'm simply listening, or soaking in my surroundings. But this, the written word, is so much easier.