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Argh. Just bleh. I'm going to die. Spring break = 10 days. I'll probably be home all of that time... Me, the same house as my parents, 24-7 for 10 days? Yeah, bury me now and save me the trouble of hanging myself. x_x;; Yeah, I'm probably going to do it.
Lin invited me to stay with her one night in Baton Rouge because she knows that I'll be drove to hanging myself, and now I don't even know if my parents are going to let me go. I hope they do ne. Since I'm going to college at LSU, this would be a good time to get a feel of the campus, plus the biggest reason: I'd be away from here. >.>;;;
I was supposed to see K-san over Spring Break, but considering she never got back to me, I guess that's not going to happen. I'm not running after people anymore to make facking plans. For once, let someone else do it.
Also, Ookami and I were going to try to go back up to the bookstore for a few hours, so I don't even know if that will work out.
My hair is being cut on Tuesday. *hugs it* I was so happy to get it cut until this morning. Now I don't want to get it cut. I'm going to miss it. *ssoooobbb*
My parents are already testing me. See, my insanity has started. Yes, we all know that 2 weeks of the month, chibi is insane and crazy and you don't really mess with her. Well, it's started, and I'm already ready to kill someone. Let's see... my parents have been cutting the grass on the two lands = 8 acres yesterday and today, but when they come in for breaks and stuff, *wejewrbuwerbqhberqeb* >_<;;; Convo with my father:
Him: Go sweep the walks.
Me: Okay. Um... where is the broom?
Him: I don't know.
Me: Um, I don't know where it is, so how am I supposed to sweep? [See, we vaccuum inside, so despite having tile everywhere, we don't use the broom]
Him: Do you use it?
Me: Yeah, to sweep the walks after you cut grass.
Him: Well, that's more than me.
Me: Okay, so...
Him: Check the utility room!
Me: *walkwalk* I don't ever use it, so I'm sorry for not knowing.
Him: Well, maybe you'd be better off if you actually did stuff around here.
I'm about to start crying. I clean upstairs and occasionally random bits around here. Sure, I'll admit that I don't do much, but how am I supposed to when my mother decides she'll do everything herself?
Then, my mother was all grr last night because I told her I was not going to prom.
Convo with her:
Me: Yeah. Another important date is Prom on April 30.
Her: Are you going?
Me: Probably not.
Her: WHY?!
Me: One, mom, you need a date. That I don't have, so therefore, I'm not going.
Her: Well, maybe if you would talk to people, then you'd have someone.
Oi. I couldn't tell her that 99% of my school hates me with a passion. I'm the oddball there anyway. Yeah right, mom, someone is so going to take notice of me when there is some tall blond with above average boobs, skinny, tanned, and willing to show off her body like it's a prize to be won. Yeah right.
I just kept quiet after that. I mean, sure... it'd be nice to have a bf, but I'm not going to look for one. I despise love as well as all other feelings. To me, love is more like a safety blanket for everyone because they are not strong enough to hold themselves. Well, I don't need someone for that. I'm fine on my own. Lonely and sad, but whatever. I'd rather be sad than that. v_v;;
Let's see. I'm on a roll.. what else can I ramble on about...
Oh, humanity is stupid. I'm glad that I'm not a human. *shakes head* I've been on a humanity sucks kick all week after rereading Night for English class. Especially America. Our properities are so messed up, but I don't really care. I cannot wait to move away from here. If I was offered citizenship at another country I really adored, then I'd so take it. Even if it meant given up my American citizenship. We are so screwed here, and I'd rather not be here.
Hmm.. now I'm sleepy again. I took a nap today! Father woke me up and asked if I wanted to go eat with them, but after yesterday night and today, I'd rather be in this big house all alone than with them. I just prefer to be alone. I know I make them sound horrible which they are not. They are great parents that are supportive, but I really just would rather be alone with my mind to keep me company... where I'm away from a society that does not understand me. Especially in a town such as this one. >_<;;;
Also, JULIA! If I do come to BR to stay with Lin, can I meet up with you somewhere on campus so I can glomp you???? T___T
Oh yeah.. I was going to type about seeing Ran, Chele, CeCe, Lin, Luke, Jim, Rach, Q-man, and all the others, but I'm rather tired of typing so I'll leave.
Sayanora~
Lin invited me to stay with her one night in Baton Rouge because she knows that I'll be drove to hanging myself, and now I don't even know if my parents are going to let me go. I hope they do ne. Since I'm going to college at LSU, this would be a good time to get a feel of the campus, plus the biggest reason: I'd be away from here. >.>;;;
I was supposed to see K-san over Spring Break, but considering she never got back to me, I guess that's not going to happen. I'm not running after people anymore to make facking plans. For once, let someone else do it.
Also, Ookami and I were going to try to go back up to the bookstore for a few hours, so I don't even know if that will work out.
My hair is being cut on Tuesday. *hugs it* I was so happy to get it cut until this morning. Now I don't want to get it cut. I'm going to miss it. *ssoooobbb*
My parents are already testing me. See, my insanity has started. Yes, we all know that 2 weeks of the month, chibi is insane and crazy and you don't really mess with her. Well, it's started, and I'm already ready to kill someone. Let's see... my parents have been cutting the grass on the two lands = 8 acres yesterday and today, but when they come in for breaks and stuff, *wejewrbuwerbqhberqeb* >_<;;; Convo with my father:
Him: Go sweep the walks.
Me: Okay. Um... where is the broom?
Him: I don't know.
Me: Um, I don't know where it is, so how am I supposed to sweep? [See, we vaccuum inside, so despite having tile everywhere, we don't use the broom]
Him: Do you use it?
Me: Yeah, to sweep the walks after you cut grass.
Him: Well, that's more than me.
Me: Okay, so...
Him: Check the utility room!
Me: *walkwalk* I don't ever use it, so I'm sorry for not knowing.
Him: Well, maybe you'd be better off if you actually did stuff around here.
I'm about to start crying. I clean upstairs and occasionally random bits around here. Sure, I'll admit that I don't do much, but how am I supposed to when my mother decides she'll do everything herself?
Then, my mother was all grr last night because I told her I was not going to prom.
Convo with her:
Me: Yeah. Another important date is Prom on April 30.
Her: Are you going?
Me: Probably not.
Her: WHY?!
Me: One, mom, you need a date. That I don't have, so therefore, I'm not going.
Her: Well, maybe if you would talk to people, then you'd have someone.
Oi. I couldn't tell her that 99% of my school hates me with a passion. I'm the oddball there anyway. Yeah right, mom, someone is so going to take notice of me when there is some tall blond with above average boobs, skinny, tanned, and willing to show off her body like it's a prize to be won. Yeah right.
I just kept quiet after that. I mean, sure... it'd be nice to have a bf, but I'm not going to look for one. I despise love as well as all other feelings. To me, love is more like a safety blanket for everyone because they are not strong enough to hold themselves. Well, I don't need someone for that. I'm fine on my own. Lonely and sad, but whatever. I'd rather be sad than that. v_v;;
Let's see. I'm on a roll.. what else can I ramble on about...
Oh, humanity is stupid. I'm glad that I'm not a human. *shakes head* I've been on a humanity sucks kick all week after rereading Night for English class. Especially America. Our properities are so messed up, but I don't really care. I cannot wait to move away from here. If I was offered citizenship at another country I really adored, then I'd so take it. Even if it meant given up my American citizenship. We are so screwed here, and I'd rather not be here.
Hmm.. now I'm sleepy again. I took a nap today! Father woke me up and asked if I wanted to go eat with them, but after yesterday night and today, I'd rather be in this big house all alone than with them. I just prefer to be alone. I know I make them sound horrible which they are not. They are great parents that are supportive, but I really just would rather be alone with my mind to keep me company... where I'm away from a society that does not understand me. Especially in a town such as this one. >_<;;;
Also, JULIA! If I do come to BR to stay with Lin, can I meet up with you somewhere on campus so I can glomp you???? T___T
Oh yeah.. I was going to type about seeing Ran, Chele, CeCe, Lin, Luke, Jim, Rach, Q-man, and all the others, but I'm rather tired of typing so I'll leave.
Sayanora~