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Since someone in the anon meme wanted to know what I thought about the Nanjing museum I saw, here's what I really think.
It did effect me in a way that I'm starting to look everything apathetically and holding on to life a bit more. I'm not sure did the people on my flist saw a post a couple of days ago, but I was to the point of just flat out quitting the RP world because it just reminded me so much of it. Sure I overreacted but I was having nightmares about it. I remember that moments before sleeping, I kept seeing this blue picture of a baby and it kept multiplying in my head. Call me a wuss if you like but I don't like seeing people getting tortured. Trust me, the pictures in the museum were quite graphic to the point where I keep seeing them everywhere, even to this day. Thank god that they were in black and white or else I would have ran out of that museum quicker than anyone else. I was not kidding when I said that I really did start crying the moment I walked in that museum. Hell, even before. I saw statues of babies crying over their mothers, people carrying their grandma others and other people, etc, etc. Even right now typing this, I'm getting goosebumps over it.
So, I walked in the museum. It wasn't too bad...it told me the history of how the Japanese invaded Shanghai and Nanjing. I didn't understand it since ,at the time, my family only had an hour to rush through the museum. Even with the English audio, I only had a vague idea of how it happened. So, I went on youtube to understand what they were talking about after coming back to America. Worst. Idea. Ever.
Okay from there, I saw pictures of the destruction and this is where I began to freak out mentally. For example, there was a freaking stick out a women's vagina. Yeah, seriously. I said to my mom saying "It can't be what I think it is...is it?" There were holes on the side of her so I wasn't even too sure if it was what I think it was. Out of all the pictures, that just freaked me out the most and I have no idea why. Some other pictures would be showing a a head of a man on lying on a stick and the burned corpses. As much as I want to talk more about the pictures I saw, I can't remember most of them. That's how much I wanted to forget I ever went to the museum. But...the rape case that I remembered the most was that they raped a women when she was barely even a teenager. They raped her to the point where she's having trouble going to the bathroom for the rest of her life. There was instruments on how they killed them too. There was this cage and spikes on them. They put Chinese people in them and rolled them down the hill. Just...why? To make it worse, after I saw the youtube documentary, I finally understood that before the Nanjing invasion they were using them as experiments for weapons. ...Why would you cut a baby open to see how the organs worked? Just...for the love of god...just....
It's just...how in the world can people be this cruel to others? HOW? I just don't understand. There's a difference between shooting someone and ending their life there and burning them alive while laughing.I mean, it REALLY did come to a point where did freak out when someone spoke Japanese. No, this isn't include anime. I think I've gotten too use to it by now. It's just real people talking in Japanese freaks me out the most. It pisses me off so much that they flat out refuse and deny that it ever happened. But then again, no one ever wants to admit something like that.
Even worse, the documentary I saw on youtube...the comments just...I wanted to stab some of the people! They said that this was a lie. Dude, if America, England, France, ...hell...almost all of the European nations were involved...that would be some lie. Just...I don't even know anymore.
If anyone said that people die and this was a war, then tell me this: Did they even need to be that cruel? Like I said before, there's a difference between killing and torturing someone.
Hell, I'm crying so much just from writing this post.
It did effect me in a way that I'm starting to look everything apathetically and holding on to life a bit more. I'm not sure did the people on my flist saw a post a couple of days ago, but I was to the point of just flat out quitting the RP world because it just reminded me so much of it. Sure I overreacted but I was having nightmares about it. I remember that moments before sleeping, I kept seeing this blue picture of a baby and it kept multiplying in my head. Call me a wuss if you like but I don't like seeing people getting tortured. Trust me, the pictures in the museum were quite graphic to the point where I keep seeing them everywhere, even to this day. Thank god that they were in black and white or else I would have ran out of that museum quicker than anyone else. I was not kidding when I said that I really did start crying the moment I walked in that museum. Hell, even before. I saw statues of babies crying over their mothers, people carrying their grandma others and other people, etc, etc. Even right now typing this, I'm getting goosebumps over it.
So, I walked in the museum. It wasn't too bad...it told me the history of how the Japanese invaded Shanghai and Nanjing. I didn't understand it since ,at the time, my family only had an hour to rush through the museum. Even with the English audio, I only had a vague idea of how it happened. So, I went on youtube to understand what they were talking about after coming back to America. Worst. Idea. Ever.
Okay from there, I saw pictures of the destruction and this is where I began to freak out mentally. For example, there was a freaking stick out a women's vagina. Yeah, seriously. I said to my mom saying "It can't be what I think it is...is it?" There were holes on the side of her so I wasn't even too sure if it was what I think it was. Out of all the pictures, that just freaked me out the most and I have no idea why. Some other pictures would be showing a a head of a man on lying on a stick and the burned corpses. As much as I want to talk more about the pictures I saw, I can't remember most of them. That's how much I wanted to forget I ever went to the museum. But...the rape case that I remembered the most was that they raped a women when she was barely even a teenager. They raped her to the point where she's having trouble going to the bathroom for the rest of her life. There was instruments on how they killed them too. There was this cage and spikes on them. They put Chinese people in them and rolled them down the hill. Just...why? To make it worse, after I saw the youtube documentary, I finally understood that before the Nanjing invasion they were using them as experiments for weapons. ...Why would you cut a baby open to see how the organs worked? Just...for the love of god...just....
It's just...how in the world can people be this cruel to others? HOW? I just don't understand. There's a difference between shooting someone and ending their life there and burning them alive while laughing.I mean, it REALLY did come to a point where did freak out when someone spoke Japanese. No, this isn't include anime. I think I've gotten too use to it by now. It's just real people talking in Japanese freaks me out the most. It pisses me off so much that they flat out refuse and deny that it ever happened. But then again, no one ever wants to admit something like that.
Even worse, the documentary I saw on youtube...the comments just...I wanted to stab some of the people! They said that this was a lie. Dude, if America, England, France, ...hell...almost all of the European nations were involved...that would be some lie. Just...I don't even know anymore.
If anyone said that people die and this was a war, then tell me this: Did they even need to be that cruel? Like I said before, there's a difference between killing and torturing someone.
Hell, I'm crying so much just from writing this post.