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today wasnt so bad. i worked. my feet hurt.
right now i smell like smoke and that what happens when you go to a party.
i have one of those half smiles tonight. the kind where your trying to hold it back because you dont want to admit to your self your feeling better. mikey use to have the smirk on all the time. jerk.
last nights entry was about my heart; how it felt.
i realize ive changed and sometimes i think its good but others dont see the hurt i still suffer from.
im angery cuz i dont think i treat people as badly as i am treated. i always keep people informed and updated and want them to be around me. but sometimes i just think they dont want me around them.
its sucks that work keeps me from being who i really wanna be sometimes. i cant get involved or have experiences.
i have no one to really tell my secrets to anymore. it hard to feel free when you hold everything in.
right now i smell like smoke and that what happens when you go to a party.
i have one of those half smiles tonight. the kind where your trying to hold it back because you dont want to admit to your self your feeling better. mikey use to have the smirk on all the time. jerk.
last nights entry was about my heart; how it felt.
i realize ive changed and sometimes i think its good but others dont see the hurt i still suffer from.
im angery cuz i dont think i treat people as badly as i am treated. i always keep people informed and updated and want them to be around me. but sometimes i just think they dont want me around them.
its sucks that work keeps me from being who i really wanna be sometimes. i cant get involved or have experiences.
i have no one to really tell my secrets to anymore. it hard to feel free when you hold everything in.