Aug 21, 2005 03:16
God, I am an asshole. I hate being like this. I hate being so mean sometimes but I have just honestly become bitter. I am just angry at life, at god, my grandma, myself, everyone who has ever loved me and everyone who has ever rejected me. The only people who make me feel good is a few select friends who actually care.
I am forced here on my floor right now, with no desk to type and no bed to sleep on. I am paying moneyt simply to live in a box that doesnt even supply me with a window. I have no book shelf. No type of decor. Walls are just walls snd my floor is filled with trash.
Most of this is my fault. But some people could have done things to lessen the problem but over looked my known disadvantages and put me now at even a few more. So Fuck You!!!