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Sitting here lonely as can be...Juss wondering wat i ever did so wrong? I juss dont understand why you can walk down the hall and not juss wanna look.. I cant understand how u can sit there so calm when all i ever wanna do is cry? I wont let u juss slip outta my life!! I wont let other people tell me things that u wont let me kno! I wont let anything come in between us and are friendship! I wont let anything bad ever happen to you my love! Juss sitting here and not knowing wat will happen next with only bad images going through my head! Only us breaking up and all the hurt and pain running through me! All i want is u and a blade! A niice clean blade to cut open my scars.. To let everyone see wat has happened to me! juss letting the blood fill the streets of the lonely road i walk and not allowing anyone else to see....But now i want you to see how i feel and all the scars i must end up hinding frm all of those who "Love" me!! Why cant u juss understand that your different than everyone else and that u make me sit in this lonely world and wonder wat i did wrong! I sit here in the dark and lonely conner and all i wanna do is see!! Why wont you juss let me kno everthing u put me through? Can i juss show u that u put me through a lot of pain and juss let us talk? Can we juss sit here in the dark and talk about everything that has happened in are life? Or do i really have to juss sit and wait until the day when u can actully say that it was all ur fault!! sittin here juss thinkin back about all the tyms u cheated on me! All the tyms u said u cared!! Sittin here and juss thinkin about the pain u put on to me!! Why cant you juss listen to wat i hacve to say for once? Why cant you juss be me for a day! Go through wat i went through all of my life!!! Having people use u and then have them tell u "Oh i love you" when they really didnt!! You live through wat i went through!! You move to a different state on the other side of the coast were u kno no one and then having to make new friends!! Having to loose your best friend and then having to make new ones!! And then learning that you are moving back...Once you see your old best friend and learn that she started cutting because u left her!! You live with that all of your life and not knowing wat really happened!! Her telling you that it's not your fault but that is all you feel!!!