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I know my last update had a lot of pictures and a good point ;; but you'll understand why I'm updating again.
Warning ;; this update is very emotional and may cause friends or family members to cry.
Today, after school, my dad interrupted my nap at my grandmother's. He made me come outside to "talk" and he had tears in his eyes. He said that he had some very bad news. I thought of the worst, considering my 6 year old sister lives in one of the worst parts of Miami.
But, he goes "your Aunt Shelle--had a heart attack last night." He had to gulp before he could say anything else. "But the doctors think she's going to be alright. She can talk now." For those who know me best, you already know this, but: my Aunt Shelle is probably one of the funniest, nicest, greatest, most admirable people you could ever meet. She's one of my best friends on my dad's side of the family, along with Amanda and Candie. But she's always very stressed. Anyway...
I was relieved to hear she was going to be alright and I actually didn't think that was cause to cry as much as he was. Then he went on.
"And...Amanda died last night." Amanda is my dad's sister. I think of her as more of a cousin because she's only about 21. She's another person I'm close to on dad's side. Or I guess I should say was close to. When we were younger, she was the only person I would look up to. I didn't have any older girls like that who would teach me how to flip on a trampoline, how to feed a bird, how not to throw up after riding rides at the fair, how to get away with jumping on her brother christopher's bed, even how to cuss ;; all of which I learned from her and more. Then, as we both got older, they moved to D.C. and my dad moved back here. I didn't get to see her as much, but I still worshipped the ground she walked on. She was always so beautiful and outragous.
Then later on, dad started telling me about Christopher and Amanda getting kicked out. Amanda getting pregnant and getting an abortion, when I didn't even know what any of it meant. All of my close friends have heard me talk about how ashamed I am of my dad's side of the family...and that would be why. They've also heard me talk about Christopher and Amanda ;; I guarantee it.
Anyway...dad went on to say that she died in her sleep. Which I know is a lie.
I don't even know what to think anymore. I've been crying since I was told. I'm so confused. How could this even happen?
Why would this even happen?
I just want to take a break from reality. I just want everything to end.
You didn't even really have to read this -- just mainly this part:
Please pray for me and my family.
[EDIT] Look under the cut.
I've went icon crazy and now I'm bored so I'm posting just a couple of them.
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Warning ;; this update is very emotional and may cause friends or family members to cry.
Today, after school, my dad interrupted my nap at my grandmother's. He made me come outside to "talk" and he had tears in his eyes. He said that he had some very bad news. I thought of the worst, considering my 6 year old sister lives in one of the worst parts of Miami.
But, he goes "your Aunt Shelle--had a heart attack last night." He had to gulp before he could say anything else. "But the doctors think she's going to be alright. She can talk now." For those who know me best, you already know this, but: my Aunt Shelle is probably one of the funniest, nicest, greatest, most admirable people you could ever meet. She's one of my best friends on my dad's side of the family, along with Amanda and Candie. But she's always very stressed. Anyway...
I was relieved to hear she was going to be alright and I actually didn't think that was cause to cry as much as he was. Then he went on.
"And...Amanda died last night." Amanda is my dad's sister. I think of her as more of a cousin because she's only about 21. She's another person I'm close to on dad's side. Or I guess I should say was close to. When we were younger, she was the only person I would look up to. I didn't have any older girls like that who would teach me how to flip on a trampoline, how to feed a bird, how not to throw up after riding rides at the fair, how to get away with jumping on her brother christopher's bed, even how to cuss ;; all of which I learned from her and more. Then, as we both got older, they moved to D.C. and my dad moved back here. I didn't get to see her as much, but I still worshipped the ground she walked on. She was always so beautiful and outragous.
Then later on, dad started telling me about Christopher and Amanda getting kicked out. Amanda getting pregnant and getting an abortion, when I didn't even know what any of it meant. All of my close friends have heard me talk about how ashamed I am of my dad's side of the family...and that would be why. They've also heard me talk about Christopher and Amanda ;; I guarantee it.
Anyway...dad went on to say that she died in her sleep. Which I know is a lie.
I don't even know what to think anymore. I've been crying since I was told. I'm so confused. How could this even happen?
Why would this even happen?
I just want to take a break from reality. I just want everything to end.
You didn't even really have to read this -- just mainly this part:
Please pray for me and my family.
[EDIT] Look under the cut.
I've went icon crazy and now I'm bored so I'm posting just a couple of them.
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