Today was 100% better!
So I am (emotionally) feeling 100% better then yesterday. I still am bitchy but not as bad. I babysat from 7am till 4pm today. It was fun. I spent most of the time swimming with the kids. It was such a gorgeous day for lounging by the pool. It was kind of sad though. This is most likely the last time I'll be babysitting these kids. They are growing up and by next summer will probably be able to stay home by themselves. I have watched them since they were wearing diapers and now they are going into the fourth and sixth grades. I can't believe how fast time goes by. Anyhow, my mom watched the kids for an hour while I went to work. I was expecting another shitty day but it really wasn't. I actually had some fun at work. I think it was because some people weren’t working and it took a lot of stress off of me. Right after work I went over to Starbucks and chilled with Jess. It sounds a little strange but it’s like my favorite place to just sit and talk. We were there for an hour and a half and I just feel good after talking with her. I think it was just what I needed. I'll probably end up hanging out with her some more this week. I miss Chris a lot. He called while I was at work and left me a message. It was sweet that he called and it proves he is thinking about me but he didn't really say much of anything. I was honestly a little disappointed. He didn't say I miss you or I can't wait to see you or happy anniversary or anything like that. It’s not like it’s a huge deal or anything. I'm not going to cry or lose sleep over it. I just think it would have been nice to hear something sweet after I've had such a shitty few days but he has no clue as to what’s been going on here so I can’t hold it against him. Oh and about my shitty few days I called my doctor and spoke with her shortly on the phone and I'm going in soon (Friday) to get my birth control changed. She said it sounds like its causing me sever depression and I need to try something else because she feels its not safe for me to have these out of control mood swings every few hours. So that made me very happy! I can not wait to feel better! I have to go now and dry my hair and get to bed. Tomorrow morning I have to rise and shine early because it’s my last day of school before the final and I don't want to be the least bit tired. Until next time, <3 Amber