falling
so basically.... im tired of finding the wrong guy. everytime i fall for a guy. he ends up being a total jerk. and i can never seem to like the ones that i should be liking. i should liek brock. or dink. or someone thats a good guy. but of course, i have to fall for zach. and then he has to go and like one of my best friends. why does trisha get every guy that i want. she gets logan, and zach, the only two guys that ive wanted for a LONG time and could never seem to get. why can't i be as pretty as her. or as sweet as her. or as whatever. ive wanted zach to like me for like ever. i even broke up with my boyfriend for him. ive never done that. well, before him. no one understands why i like him. heck, i don't even understand why i like him. and maybe i don't even know what im talking about. but its like even though i find out hes talking to my friend... i still want him. i still like him. im still falling. and i don't want to stop. i want to just be with him. i thought about him the WHOLE weekend and i had NO idea that the reason he wasnt talking to me was because he was too busy talking to my friend. yet after hearing everything about him. i don't seem to care. i just want him to tell me that he likes me. i just want to fall into his arms. why does he do this to me? this is absolutely ridiculous. i don't even know him. yet i think about him all the time. iver wrote so many blogs about him. im tired of crying over a guy that has no feelings for me. i want him so bad it hurts. i always said that if i can find a guy that other people don't think is cute.. but i think is absolutely adorable... then he would be special... that guy is zach. why can't he just like me. at least try to date me. something. anything. im tired of this crap. somebody catch me.