Somewhere over the rainbow
Wow this is a first entry in a very long time. So much has happened I can't put it all done in one sitting, so I am not going to try in multiple ones either. Miss all my friends I don't see often. I need to start school or get a job soon. This no money this fucking sucks. Been spending a lot, I mean a lot of time with the boys. Weird stuff on the home front there. But I am sure in a while things will calm down and we can move on in our normal dysfunctional way. I have gotten some advice for the "speedy" boy problem and I am going to take it. I have two really good friends who have place protection spells on me and now it is time for me to get to work. A bit nervous about it but I have faith in myself and those lights around me. Blessed be to all involved and may our light shine through the cloud of dark.
Also, I have been thinking about many things and I am just getting myself into trouble. I ned to face a few things and there are road blocks in the way and I have yet to figure out how to get them off the road. Maybe I should take a detour. I mean if I end up in the right place.?.?.? Who knows. My heart is breaking. It feels as though a dark shadow has placed its cold fingers around my heart and is slowly ripping it in two. I don't want or need anyone, yet I am craving their attention. I want to push, kick, and scream; yet I long for their touch and caressing words.
I have fallen for a man who will never see me.
I am wrapped in a cloak of darkness with a man who will not leave me be.
I am drawn to a man whom can never share true love and devotion to me.
I am flirting dangerously with a man I can not yet have.
Hmmm what a mess I have created, what a mess.
Maybe I should just go to bed and let my dreams take over.
Also, I have been thinking about many things and I am just getting myself into trouble. I ned to face a few things and there are road blocks in the way and I have yet to figure out how to get them off the road. Maybe I should take a detour. I mean if I end up in the right place.?.?.? Who knows. My heart is breaking. It feels as though a dark shadow has placed its cold fingers around my heart and is slowly ripping it in two. I don't want or need anyone, yet I am craving their attention. I want to push, kick, and scream; yet I long for their touch and caressing words.
I have fallen for a man who will never see me.
I am wrapped in a cloak of darkness with a man who will not leave me be.
I am drawn to a man whom can never share true love and devotion to me.
I am flirting dangerously with a man I can not yet have.
Hmmm what a mess I have created, what a mess.
Maybe I should just go to bed and let my dreams take over.