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i had two nightmares last night.
first:
i was caught up in some wierd people and was in some city. i was hanging with a lot of people who liked the drugs, especially mj. and so i went and bought a thing (dont even know what its called) but i didnt know how to smoke it. i was walking around looking for someone i knew to explain it to me, and i found this outdoor meeting thing with all these chairs. alex was in the far back and that girl that jack "dated" for a day on spring trip was kissing the back of his neck. i overheard "when's ameneh coming back" "I dont know and i dont really care" and then i walked past and waved. my heart was breaking. when i walked past again she was gone and i sat down and started talking to him but i couldnt get over the breaking of my heart. i wanted to smoke the stuff i had bought but i didnt know how. then i woke up.
second:
my mom had been talking with this guy who had a horse or something. my family was shopping in this big department store, and somehow my mom and i ended up in jail. the guy with the horse bailed us out, and for some reason my mom was dating this other guy. we went back to our house and my dad was there and we had dinner and then my mom said she was going to leave my father for the guy. i started shaking and got up and started clearning away the dishes, focusing on teh only thing that made sense. then i just started screaming at my partents " fuck you both fuck you both i hate you fuck you both" and they couldnt calm me down and i just kept cleaning the dishes and taking out the trash. when i came back inside my mom was still there saying "i hate how i have to pretend im going to leave to get you to change" to my father. i saw that she wasnt really going to leave, she was just pulling that trick again. i screamed at her "i cant trust you dont do that i cant trust you" and hitting her and pulling at her. i was so angry. and then i woke up.
my heart was racing all night long. i slept in past 8 though.
first:
i was caught up in some wierd people and was in some city. i was hanging with a lot of people who liked the drugs, especially mj. and so i went and bought a thing (dont even know what its called) but i didnt know how to smoke it. i was walking around looking for someone i knew to explain it to me, and i found this outdoor meeting thing with all these chairs. alex was in the far back and that girl that jack "dated" for a day on spring trip was kissing the back of his neck. i overheard "when's ameneh coming back" "I dont know and i dont really care" and then i walked past and waved. my heart was breaking. when i walked past again she was gone and i sat down and started talking to him but i couldnt get over the breaking of my heart. i wanted to smoke the stuff i had bought but i didnt know how. then i woke up.
second:
my mom had been talking with this guy who had a horse or something. my family was shopping in this big department store, and somehow my mom and i ended up in jail. the guy with the horse bailed us out, and for some reason my mom was dating this other guy. we went back to our house and my dad was there and we had dinner and then my mom said she was going to leave my father for the guy. i started shaking and got up and started clearning away the dishes, focusing on teh only thing that made sense. then i just started screaming at my partents " fuck you both fuck you both i hate you fuck you both" and they couldnt calm me down and i just kept cleaning the dishes and taking out the trash. when i came back inside my mom was still there saying "i hate how i have to pretend im going to leave to get you to change" to my father. i saw that she wasnt really going to leave, she was just pulling that trick again. i screamed at her "i cant trust you dont do that i cant trust you" and hitting her and pulling at her. i was so angry. and then i woke up.
my heart was racing all night long. i slept in past 8 though.