North Carolina by Meliisa Ferrick

[ambivalent_me86]

i’m a mile and a half off of the tracks
in Raleigh, North Carolina
with my
foot all jammed up from driving
14 hours
and my body can’t sit upright
hanging around watching the t.v. on mute
listening to all of my money making peers

yeah and it’s
hard not to go to that
place in my head
that’ll stop me from ever leaving this room
yeah and it’s all so confusing
because i’m all worked up
because all my thoughts are tangled into one
panicked line of white noise

drown out the voices
drown out the noise
drown out the bitterness yeah that I have stored
drown out my wanting
drown out the fear
you know that everything i’ve worked for
is just going to
disappear

because ever since I left you
i’ve got no one to call
i’ve got nothing to do but sit around and think about how I could have not hurt you
I am so sick of feeling so sorry for myself you know I go from I go from insanely happy
to no I don’t want to be around anybody else
i’m not sure if you know exactly how you feel about me so
let me tell you how you
feel about me

drown out the voices
drown out the noise
drown out the bitterness yeah that I have stored
drown out my wanting
drown out the fear
you know that everything i’ve worked for
is just going
disappear

so I pretend i’m connected
I pretend I can feel
I pretend I care about what you think
‘cause intensity
it’s never really
been a problem for me
so i’m sorry if I scared you
I just want to be loved...

drown out the voices
drown out the noise
drown out the bitterness that I have stored
drown out my wanting
drown out the fear
you know that everything i’ve worked for
is just going to
drown out the voices
drown out the noise
drown out the bitterness yeah that I have stored
drown out my wanting
drown out the fear
you know that everything i’ve worked for
is just going to
disappear

i’m a mile and a half off of the tracks
in Raleigh, North Carolina