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[ambivalant]

sittig alone.. painted red is the world before me..

rocking in my chair.. looking out the window.. rubbing my head..

drinking my water.. pop one after another..

my mind takes me there.. to that place..
it's that ocean shore.. in san francisco..
my mom and i took a walk along.. on a foggy day..
a guy in his wet suit trying to surf the mini waves..
the many images that flashed through my being..

it will be there.. i have decided..
that is the place..
that forever my being will be painted red..
or perhaps blue..

i haven't decided.. yet for sure..

but i dream about it..

and it is perhaps as close to a good dream i can get..