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I find myself incredibly frustrated lately.
I feel like I have no friends. I wonder if it's something I've done. If I don't call it's because I don't have anything to say. I don't do anything. I am boring. I am happy that I am boring. I just want my friends back with my boring life.
I find myself frustrated a lot with Natalie. I resent her. I feel like she steals my friends from me. Whether she does or not I feel it is unfair. Obviously if I can have friends 'stolen' from me easily enough, or feel as though I am being attacked with it, I must be the problem.
I know that friendships need regular maintenance. I have other friends that don't mind if their friendships fall apart. I feel like I rely too heavily on John when I have no one else.
Natalie hasn't even been calling me anymore. I feel kind of lost. What happened?
I feel like I have no friends. I wonder if it's something I've done. If I don't call it's because I don't have anything to say. I don't do anything. I am boring. I am happy that I am boring. I just want my friends back with my boring life.
I find myself frustrated a lot with Natalie. I resent her. I feel like she steals my friends from me. Whether she does or not I feel it is unfair. Obviously if I can have friends 'stolen' from me easily enough, or feel as though I am being attacked with it, I must be the problem.
I know that friendships need regular maintenance. I have other friends that don't mind if their friendships fall apart. I feel like I rely too heavily on John when I have no one else.
Natalie hasn't even been calling me anymore. I feel kind of lost. What happened?