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i think i need a b r e a k.
from him most of all.i cant keep waiting around waiting for him to be ready for me because this is who i am, who ill be and so here i come ready or not andrew here i come.
idk i hate my relationship sometimes i hate it.i hate every friday night we sit and do nothing im sorry im not a girl who likes to play cards all the damn time.i didnt like playing cards growing up.i miss the nights when me <3sam<3 and them would be walking around watching the boys skate sitting on mikes porch or doing something to get us in trouble.playing manhunt and all the good times and bad times and in between.walking to major cooloff.i miss it and we all grow up and we can never go back to that.we arent the same ppl we were back then.
im sure andrew misses his old partying days and old friends and all his girls.i want him to go back to that sometimes. he wont go tho he doesnt want that life anymore he doesnt care about those people anymore.im so messed up right now.like why cant things stay the same?change is always going on.i mean if i didnt have him i wouldnt have anything right now.i love him so much and at the same time i cant stand it.were not breaking up or fighting but idk im so bored.i feel like ima psychopath~i want to spend the rest of my life with him but i cant stand him sometimes.
is this how its supposed to be?