old songs stay till the end
things are changing, in a very structured and functional way. for awhile it was tumultous in its transition and i felt like i was losing people, and an in some ways i have lost somebody. i get very forlorn when i think about it, but the further i get away from it the less i can be upset, and the more i put myself into the wholesome environment that was always here but which i never wholly allowed myself to be submerged in. i have reached a different level of intensity with certain people and it is stable and wholesome. and even in the intensity which i have reached with one of them, it has remained constant and they're there the morning after.. =)
i am completely in love, but not even in a dysfunctional way. it's not like it's utterly consuming, and i have my own life. my new classes aren't that bad, and the extra workload is good for me. i go to the gym a lot and i volunteer at norwalk hospital. i guess in a sense i'm trying to keep myself busy and give my life the structure i never really wanted it to have.
the farther i get away from certain people, the farther i travel from that atmosphere and that lifestyle, and what's scary is that when i change as a person, the variables change, and i thus can't look at changing situations through constant variables. and once i lose the constant variables, i don't know what really has changed and what hasn't. but in this frame of thought, i'm happy and i'm doing the right things, or trying to..
i can't articulate anything!
eva
old songs stay until the end.
-mogwai
i am completely in love, but not even in a dysfunctional way. it's not like it's utterly consuming, and i have my own life. my new classes aren't that bad, and the extra workload is good for me. i go to the gym a lot and i volunteer at norwalk hospital. i guess in a sense i'm trying to keep myself busy and give my life the structure i never really wanted it to have.
the farther i get away from certain people, the farther i travel from that atmosphere and that lifestyle, and what's scary is that when i change as a person, the variables change, and i thus can't look at changing situations through constant variables. and once i lose the constant variables, i don't know what really has changed and what hasn't. but in this frame of thought, i'm happy and i'm doing the right things, or trying to..
i can't articulate anything!
eva
old songs stay until the end.
-mogwai