You Come Crash Into Me And I Come Into You
I think I'm jonesing.
Last night I actually dreamt of bb. Can you believe that? I think it's because I've been talking to and of him on overdrive. In my dream we were doing just that. Talking. It's a vague recollection and I do not remember much else.
I think it also had something to do with me thinking about that Wednesday night we spent on the rooftop at Indigo right before I went to sleep.
That Wednesday had been a slow night. Cass and I hadn't been able to find anyone who wanted to go downtown with us and so we had gone to 'Emmerson Biggins' on our own. Another one of our friends had promised to meet us up there and so we were just going to go and have a few drinks while waiting for her.
I'd gone on my first date with bb just the night before and we had been texting all day. He was working the door at Indigo and had asked me to stop by and say 'hi' because we would have to walk past Indigo to get to Biggins. He wasn't at the door however when we walked past so we just continued onto Biggins.
Jordan, the friend that was supposed to meet us at Biggins stood us up so it was just the two of us in a booth at the back. Cass was occupied with her phone as usual so I quickly texted bb to let him know that I had wanted to say 'hi' but that he hadn't been there. "What? You walked through here already? I didn't see you! I went to the back for 3 mins to get water! Come back!!!" he instantly texted back.
He text-persuaded me for the whole hour while I in turn persuaded Cass, Raymond, Ryan and Joe (we bumped into them) to get their asses over to Indigo with me. He was at the door waiting and looking at us as we made our way across the parking lot and across the tiny brick street. "You finally made it!" he said as he greeted me with a big hug. We all stood there for a little while just making small talk before heading inside.
The club was almost completely empty. Wednesday nights are good for that. We immediately headed up to the rooftop and got a table by the balcony. There must've only been about 15 other people up there. It was nice to actually be able to see the floor of the place for once. "Are you lonely down there?" I texted bb to ask. "Yes. Very" came the instant reply.
"Want me to come downstairs to keep you company?" I volunteered. "Thats alright! I'll come up. Give me 5" he said. Figuring I had enough time to get another drink I headed to the bar with Joe and flirted with him a little so that he would get me one. We got our drinks and sat back down with the others. I had my back to the entrance and was totally engrossed in a conversation with Ryan about snowboarding when bb texted me. "You gotta turn around!" was all it said. I leaned across the table to Cassandra and asked if bb was standing behind me.
"Um, he's been standing there and waiting the whole time Sarah. He was already there when you went to the bar to get your drink" she whispered back. I slowly turned around to see him leaning against the banister, looking at his phone and shuffling his feet. I almost laughed because it was such an odd sight seeing someone of such large stature fidget like a little boy.
I walked toward him and he smiled at me. He still continued to shuffle his feet as we made awkward conversation. "Let's go over to that side" I suggested, pointing towards the other rooftop section that appeared to be completely empty. He nodded and we walked towards the wooden benches. I immediately sat down on one as he continued to stand and fidget.
"You look very nice tonight" he said as he turned towards me. "Thank you! I made an extra effort because I knew I was going to see you" I flirted in response. He just laughed as though I had said something funny. "Come sit down beside me" I said as I tapped the spot on the bench right beside me.
We sat under the stars; talking. We sat close enough that our arms touched and I got goosebumps everytime he moved and his arm rubbed against mine. I must've been more nervous than I thought I was because I chugged my drink through a straw --- not stopping until it was finished. "You look like you could do with another, Ms. Alcoholic" he said while starting to get up. "No, no! I think I should stop, really. That was like my 10th one" I giggled while reaching out to touch his arm.
"If you say so! God! I wish I could've had at least one tonight" he said as he leaned back against the wooden beams. Taking that as my cue, I leaned over to rest my head on his shoulder and almost automatically he wrapped his arm around me. We sat there in silence. All I remember was that I closed my eyes and all I could smell was the wood around me.
"Well we can each have 10 tomorrow at the Shadow. You ARE coming right?" I asked. "Yea I think I am. I'm trying to get one of my friends to come out with me so that I'm not completely alone if you don't remember me!" "WHAT?" I interjected before he could finish his sentence. "How can I not remember you? I said in indigence while sitting straight up.
"I don't know. You are Ms. Popular and I'm sure there are going to be at least 100 boys there tomorrow night trying to get your attention. You might forget me" he said. "Babe! I would never forget you! You will be guaranteed my full attention all night! I promise!" I said as sweetly as I could while smiling up at him. He merely responded by smiling back at me and touching his index finger to my chin.
I thought he was going to kiss me right then but he didnt. Instead we just sat there till he had go back downstairs to work. I then spent the rest of the night talking to Ryan and drinking no. 11, 12 and 13. By 1:15am Cass decided that she was done for the night and so the bunch of us made our way downstairs. I tried to see if bb was around but I couldn't seem to locate him so I figured he was outside.
Raymond had been exceptionally drunk that night and he was very touchy-feely. We stood by the 'stripper pole' saying and hugging goodnight and when it came to his turn he gave me what felt like a 10 minute hug. He then kissed the top of my hand, hugged me again and then kissed me on the cheek. As if things weren't already awkward enough, I turned around to find bb looking straight at me.
He had been sitting on a stool by the door which was probably why I hadn't been able to see him. "Crap! Now he's going to think that he's just another one of my boys" was all I could think as I made my way towards him. "I think we're going to head out now" I said as soon as he was close enough to hear. "Ok! Text me so I know you got home safe ok?" was all he said in return. "Alright then! Talk to ya later!" I said as I reached in to give him a hug goodbye, running both my hands down his arms.
I texted him as soon as I got home and he texted me back till he was done with work and safe in bed. That was definitely a good night. Definitely jonesing.
Maybe tomorrow I'll write about the other weird dream I had last night. I was 9 months pregnant and just about to pop. Not fun. Definitely too many thoughts and emotions haunting me even in my dreams . Until then.
Last night I actually dreamt of bb. Can you believe that? I think it's because I've been talking to and of him on overdrive. In my dream we were doing just that. Talking. It's a vague recollection and I do not remember much else.
I think it also had something to do with me thinking about that Wednesday night we spent on the rooftop at Indigo right before I went to sleep.
That Wednesday had been a slow night. Cass and I hadn't been able to find anyone who wanted to go downtown with us and so we had gone to 'Emmerson Biggins' on our own. Another one of our friends had promised to meet us up there and so we were just going to go and have a few drinks while waiting for her.
I'd gone on my first date with bb just the night before and we had been texting all day. He was working the door at Indigo and had asked me to stop by and say 'hi' because we would have to walk past Indigo to get to Biggins. He wasn't at the door however when we walked past so we just continued onto Biggins.
Jordan, the friend that was supposed to meet us at Biggins stood us up so it was just the two of us in a booth at the back. Cass was occupied with her phone as usual so I quickly texted bb to let him know that I had wanted to say 'hi' but that he hadn't been there. "What? You walked through here already? I didn't see you! I went to the back for 3 mins to get water! Come back!!!" he instantly texted back.
He text-persuaded me for the whole hour while I in turn persuaded Cass, Raymond, Ryan and Joe (we bumped into them) to get their asses over to Indigo with me. He was at the door waiting and looking at us as we made our way across the parking lot and across the tiny brick street. "You finally made it!" he said as he greeted me with a big hug. We all stood there for a little while just making small talk before heading inside.
The club was almost completely empty. Wednesday nights are good for that. We immediately headed up to the rooftop and got a table by the balcony. There must've only been about 15 other people up there. It was nice to actually be able to see the floor of the place for once. "Are you lonely down there?" I texted bb to ask. "Yes. Very" came the instant reply.
"Want me to come downstairs to keep you company?" I volunteered. "Thats alright! I'll come up. Give me 5" he said. Figuring I had enough time to get another drink I headed to the bar with Joe and flirted with him a little so that he would get me one. We got our drinks and sat back down with the others. I had my back to the entrance and was totally engrossed in a conversation with Ryan about snowboarding when bb texted me. "You gotta turn around!" was all it said. I leaned across the table to Cassandra and asked if bb was standing behind me.
"Um, he's been standing there and waiting the whole time Sarah. He was already there when you went to the bar to get your drink" she whispered back. I slowly turned around to see him leaning against the banister, looking at his phone and shuffling his feet. I almost laughed because it was such an odd sight seeing someone of such large stature fidget like a little boy.
I walked toward him and he smiled at me. He still continued to shuffle his feet as we made awkward conversation. "Let's go over to that side" I suggested, pointing towards the other rooftop section that appeared to be completely empty. He nodded and we walked towards the wooden benches. I immediately sat down on one as he continued to stand and fidget.
"You look very nice tonight" he said as he turned towards me. "Thank you! I made an extra effort because I knew I was going to see you" I flirted in response. He just laughed as though I had said something funny. "Come sit down beside me" I said as I tapped the spot on the bench right beside me.
We sat under the stars; talking. We sat close enough that our arms touched and I got goosebumps everytime he moved and his arm rubbed against mine. I must've been more nervous than I thought I was because I chugged my drink through a straw --- not stopping until it was finished. "You look like you could do with another, Ms. Alcoholic" he said while starting to get up. "No, no! I think I should stop, really. That was like my 10th one" I giggled while reaching out to touch his arm.
"If you say so! God! I wish I could've had at least one tonight" he said as he leaned back against the wooden beams. Taking that as my cue, I leaned over to rest my head on his shoulder and almost automatically he wrapped his arm around me. We sat there in silence. All I remember was that I closed my eyes and all I could smell was the wood around me.
"Well we can each have 10 tomorrow at the Shadow. You ARE coming right?" I asked. "Yea I think I am. I'm trying to get one of my friends to come out with me so that I'm not completely alone if you don't remember me!" "WHAT?" I interjected before he could finish his sentence. "How can I not remember you? I said in indigence while sitting straight up.
"I don't know. You are Ms. Popular and I'm sure there are going to be at least 100 boys there tomorrow night trying to get your attention. You might forget me" he said. "Babe! I would never forget you! You will be guaranteed my full attention all night! I promise!" I said as sweetly as I could while smiling up at him. He merely responded by smiling back at me and touching his index finger to my chin.
I thought he was going to kiss me right then but he didnt. Instead we just sat there till he had go back downstairs to work. I then spent the rest of the night talking to Ryan and drinking no. 11, 12 and 13. By 1:15am Cass decided that she was done for the night and so the bunch of us made our way downstairs. I tried to see if bb was around but I couldn't seem to locate him so I figured he was outside.
Raymond had been exceptionally drunk that night and he was very touchy-feely. We stood by the 'stripper pole' saying and hugging goodnight and when it came to his turn he gave me what felt like a 10 minute hug. He then kissed the top of my hand, hugged me again and then kissed me on the cheek. As if things weren't already awkward enough, I turned around to find bb looking straight at me.
He had been sitting on a stool by the door which was probably why I hadn't been able to see him. "Crap! Now he's going to think that he's just another one of my boys" was all I could think as I made my way towards him. "I think we're going to head out now" I said as soon as he was close enough to hear. "Ok! Text me so I know you got home safe ok?" was all he said in return. "Alright then! Talk to ya later!" I said as I reached in to give him a hug goodbye, running both my hands down his arms.
I texted him as soon as I got home and he texted me back till he was done with work and safe in bed. That was definitely a good night. Definitely jonesing.
Maybe tomorrow I'll write about the other weird dream I had last night. I was 9 months pregnant and just about to pop. Not fun. Definitely too many thoughts and emotions haunting me even in my dreams . Until then.