2014 has been trying.
One step for life lessons, one giant leap for stupidity. I did something that I never do and I am now suffering the consequences; three months deep and six months to soldier through. Stupid, stupid girl. Alas if I am truly alive mistakes are bound to be made. However this entry is not about the night of january 22, it is more about nothingness- in all forms.
Almost ten years now and I still have this ghost following me around, both hindering and inspiring, hopeless and hopeful. The question I've not yet answered is- because it is fated or because it's the best outline I have for happiness? I'm scared it is more one and not the other... correction it *is at least one, the romantic inside me wants both. I've lost my nothingness train of thought, working is not conducive to thinking, hah!
TBC
Almost ten years now and I still have this ghost following me around, both hindering and inspiring, hopeless and hopeful. The question I've not yet answered is- because it is fated or because it's the best outline I have for happiness? I'm scared it is more one and not the other... correction it *is at least one, the romantic inside me wants both. I've lost my nothingness train of thought, working is not conducive to thinking, hah!
TBC