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I am so worn out. From what I have no idea... maybe its from all this self-reflection I've been doing the past week. This is why its so bad for me to get sick and sit at home. I just think... something I usually try to avoid at all costs. But I have learned some pretty important things about myself. Some things I have learned:
1. I must be pretty unapproachable. The distinct reason for this, I don't know. It probably varies with each person that finds me so hard to talk to.
2. I am tired of feeling like I don't matter. While this thought process is going to be a hard one to break, I don't like feeling so insignificant. And I don't like that I let certain people make me feel this way.
3. There's a lot of things left to learn.
I guess that's really all I want to share... and even that seems like too much. maybe I am closed off and not so open.. but I've decided that its ok. Why? Because when its important, I am still honest, and when asked direct questions, I don't back down from them.
I am dreading work tomorrow. I should go to bed.
Last night, Austin had a bonfire down at the farm that I went to. He fell out of a tree. It was hilarious. I enjoy his friends... most of them, most of the time.
1. I must be pretty unapproachable. The distinct reason for this, I don't know. It probably varies with each person that finds me so hard to talk to.
2. I am tired of feeling like I don't matter. While this thought process is going to be a hard one to break, I don't like feeling so insignificant. And I don't like that I let certain people make me feel this way.
3. There's a lot of things left to learn.
I guess that's really all I want to share... and even that seems like too much. maybe I am closed off and not so open.. but I've decided that its ok. Why? Because when its important, I am still honest, and when asked direct questions, I don't back down from them.
I am dreading work tomorrow. I should go to bed.
Last night, Austin had a bonfire down at the farm that I went to. He fell out of a tree. It was hilarious. I enjoy his friends... most of them, most of the time.