AgroPOP
*Sigh* So, where do I begin? It seems that I'm utilizing LJ as an emotional barf bag tonight, and I am okay with that.
I am beside myself thinking about what is going to happen tomorrow afternoon. It's his day to have the kid... but I can't help but think that she's going to come take him because she can. He has been unavailable to her for the past week, maybe more... I don't know for sure becuase the dramastorm has been raging for what seems like years now... She is no doubt feeling the loss of one of the few people who cared unconditionally for her... I fear that the kid is going to be used as a pawn in a power struggle created by her and I am powerless to stop it. The most difficult part of this is, I care about the kid a lot. He's very dear to me and to all of the people in my family, in fact he is a part of this family and has been since day one, almost 5 years ago. I almost feel like she's going to take him away from us because she wants a dramatic confrontation.
Now, normally, a parent might come to the conclusion that more time is needed to be spent with their kid and they go ahead and you know, devote themselves to their kid. Be with them not out of obligation but because they actually like the kid. I'd like to think that this newfound concern of hers is genuine, but I've seen it many times before. It's almost like it goes in these steps without fail. Guilt because of not being with or spending "good time" with the kid. Over compensation with material posessions. This builds unrealisitc expectations from the kid to the parent. Parent is overwhelmed by the needs of kid, and then freaks out and calls the other parent to take care of the kid.
That's what is playing right now at this matinee special. It's played before and I am pretty sure it will play again.
I wish it would find resolution instead of hashing up the same ol' story over and over. I am really tired of this "groundhogs day" type of thing.
I am beside myself thinking about what is going to happen tomorrow afternoon. It's his day to have the kid... but I can't help but think that she's going to come take him because she can. He has been unavailable to her for the past week, maybe more... I don't know for sure becuase the dramastorm has been raging for what seems like years now... She is no doubt feeling the loss of one of the few people who cared unconditionally for her... I fear that the kid is going to be used as a pawn in a power struggle created by her and I am powerless to stop it. The most difficult part of this is, I care about the kid a lot. He's very dear to me and to all of the people in my family, in fact he is a part of this family and has been since day one, almost 5 years ago. I almost feel like she's going to take him away from us because she wants a dramatic confrontation.
Now, normally, a parent might come to the conclusion that more time is needed to be spent with their kid and they go ahead and you know, devote themselves to their kid. Be with them not out of obligation but because they actually like the kid. I'd like to think that this newfound concern of hers is genuine, but I've seen it many times before. It's almost like it goes in these steps without fail. Guilt because of not being with or spending "good time" with the kid. Over compensation with material posessions. This builds unrealisitc expectations from the kid to the parent. Parent is overwhelmed by the needs of kid, and then freaks out and calls the other parent to take care of the kid.
That's what is playing right now at this matinee special. It's played before and I am pretty sure it will play again.
I wish it would find resolution instead of hashing up the same ol' story over and over. I am really tired of this "groundhogs day" type of thing.