Deep Thoughts with Amber ...forget Jack
Today is the first day of the rest of my life
I'm gonna stop looking back and start moving on
Learn how to face my fears
Love with all of my heart, make my mark
I wanna leave something here
Go out on a ledge, without any net
That's what I'm gonna be about
Yeah, I wanna be running
When the sand runs out
-courtesy of Meghan Wallace
So I have forced myself to do a lot of thinking lately...soul searching if you will. I have been horrible lately. I have everything going for me but my attitude has been TERRIBLE and I couldn't figure out why. I have been so blah and I am aware of it but continue for whatever reason. I have an amazing place to live, two roommates that couldn't be better, a brand new car, 3 jobs that I really enjoy, an opportunity to further my education for free...and the list goes on. I work over 50 hours a week and things have been stressful for me. I just kept feeling sorry for myself which is just absolutely ridiculous. The problem is I didn't realize what further damage this was causing. It took the great loss of something so special to me to reflect on my selfish actions. So maybe I can't go to school full time like I would love, maybe I do have to work so much harder than most people I know, yeah it hurts to not have the support of the people who should always "have your back" (my parents). But SO WHAT!!! I got a huge kick in the head and for that I am thankful. It was the motivation I needed. I regret the manner in which I received this great "revelation" but it was exactly what I needed. "Worrying is like a rocking chair, it gives you something to do but it gets you no where." Me being sad because I don't want to always have to work, or I can't get things exactly the way I want will not change a thing but making the situation miserable for me and all parties involved. I have to work even when I can barely keep my eyes open if I want to live where I live, drive what I drive, and eat what I eat. The best way to accomplish this is with a smile on my face. I speak with the experience of a 2 year old pre school teacher...
NOBODY LIKES A WHINER!
I'm gonna stop looking back and start moving on
Learn how to face my fears
Love with all of my heart, make my mark
I wanna leave something here
Go out on a ledge, without any net
That's what I'm gonna be about
Yeah, I wanna be running
When the sand runs out
-courtesy of Meghan Wallace
So I have forced myself to do a lot of thinking lately...soul searching if you will. I have been horrible lately. I have everything going for me but my attitude has been TERRIBLE and I couldn't figure out why. I have been so blah and I am aware of it but continue for whatever reason. I have an amazing place to live, two roommates that couldn't be better, a brand new car, 3 jobs that I really enjoy, an opportunity to further my education for free...and the list goes on. I work over 50 hours a week and things have been stressful for me. I just kept feeling sorry for myself which is just absolutely ridiculous. The problem is I didn't realize what further damage this was causing. It took the great loss of something so special to me to reflect on my selfish actions. So maybe I can't go to school full time like I would love, maybe I do have to work so much harder than most people I know, yeah it hurts to not have the support of the people who should always "have your back" (my parents). But SO WHAT!!! I got a huge kick in the head and for that I am thankful. It was the motivation I needed. I regret the manner in which I received this great "revelation" but it was exactly what I needed. "Worrying is like a rocking chair, it gives you something to do but it gets you no where." Me being sad because I don't want to always have to work, or I can't get things exactly the way I want will not change a thing but making the situation miserable for me and all parties involved. I have to work even when I can barely keep my eyes open if I want to live where I live, drive what I drive, and eat what I eat. The best way to accomplish this is with a smile on my face. I speak with the experience of a 2 year old pre school teacher...
NOBODY LIKES A WHINER!