taking time out:
I feel very heavy tonight. Just as I did last night as I tossed and turned. I don't want any of this to be true, and yet I don't want to feel stupid either.
I want to have many more years with my husband. I want to wake up many more days and look into his eyes. I don't like the idea of not being married in heaven.
For a minute I grow nervous. I kiss my babies and think..will they know how beautiful everything is right now? Even though it truly isn't. Not like it will be.
I liken it to labor. We cannot look within ourselves and tell the unborn child how wonderful it is outside. All they know is that dark watery world. I could describe what the sun feels like, how good the air smells and it would have no clue. It would hesitate before shouting for joy about meeting me.
I am like that babe, here in the dark, with my trappings and the only world I know. Heaven and paradise seem far off. It's seems boring.
Sure I have glimpses of what God is like...just like the unborn child can hear our voice faintly. It see light very dimly...
I guess we are like that, aren't we?
I want to feel God even more today. I need to feel Him to know that this is all good...that I am not on some wild tangent.
Let us pray as a group of brothers and sisters, that He reveals Himself now more than ever. We need to feel His arms and follow in His steps.
I love you all
~amen
I want to have many more years with my husband. I want to wake up many more days and look into his eyes. I don't like the idea of not being married in heaven.
For a minute I grow nervous. I kiss my babies and think..will they know how beautiful everything is right now? Even though it truly isn't. Not like it will be.
I liken it to labor. We cannot look within ourselves and tell the unborn child how wonderful it is outside. All they know is that dark watery world. I could describe what the sun feels like, how good the air smells and it would have no clue. It would hesitate before shouting for joy about meeting me.
I am like that babe, here in the dark, with my trappings and the only world I know. Heaven and paradise seem far off. It's seems boring.
Sure I have glimpses of what God is like...just like the unborn child can hear our voice faintly. It see light very dimly...
I guess we are like that, aren't we?
I want to feel God even more today. I need to feel Him to know that this is all good...that I am not on some wild tangent.
Let us pray as a group of brothers and sisters, that He reveals Himself now more than ever. We need to feel His arms and follow in His steps.
I love you all
~amen