Animal
Soooooo I didn't eat anything up until about 5pm yesterday and i wasn't even hungry at all. But just like everyday i have to make dinner. I made Shake and Bake chicken breast in the oven, chicken broccoli rice and mixed veggies. Normally it doesn't bother me having all that food in front of me. After everything was done and i served up the kids i took a little tiny piece of breading off a breast and ate it (prob like 1 calorie) Next thing i know i'm hovered over the baking dish devouring a chicken breast like some kind of animal. I even starting eating some of the rice right out of the pot with he serving spoon. I was hovering over the fucking STOVE shoveling food into my mouth and i wasn't even hungry. Eh well it ended up only being a 600 calorie binge, but still i felt so fucking sick. I tried throwing up, but i couldn't. I have never been able to make myself purge, unless i was really sick. So i have 600 calories in 3 days and i gain 3lbs........back up to 140.......really? How is it possible, doesn't it like defy all logic, science and reason?......FUCK ME I took a bunch of laxatives, i know it doesn't do much but it will make me feel a little better.
This is my future bellow
This is my future bellow