Sick
I am really sick. I haven't been able to talk in like 4 days now and my throat is all swollen up. I can't barley swallow because it really hurts. I guess that the plus side is that i don't want to even think about having to swallow food. I should probably go to the doctor, but i can't. I look like fucking hell and they will probably lock me up and throw away the key. I am covered in cuts on my arms and legs, i even have a couple on my collar bone and ribs. I mean i know it's fucked up to sit there and cut yourself, but it makes me feel better when i'm really upset. I am able to make excuses and hide them at home, but at the doctors they need to check your blood pressure and all that crap and they will see. Not to mention i live in south Florida and when i walk in there with a sweater to cover everything.....well thats going to look suspicious and weird. So as well as being all carved up i am also covered from head to toe in really nasty bruises. I like like a damn cancer patient or something. Like seriously, i have fucking busises where i didn't even know its possible to get brusis. It's actually pretty embarrassing and i avoid going into public. I look like i have had the crap beat out of me. Gotta love what not eating does to your body. Sooooooo hopefully my throat doesn't completely close up, because i sure as shit am not going to the doctor.