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Theres a part of me that just feels empty now.
Now that I know hes not there anymore.
That he could care less what happens to me.
When all along I thought he was my best friend.
Above everything else my best fucking friend.
&& I hate not being able to see you.
One night.
On unbelievably amazing night.
&& now its just alittle here alittle there.
I hate not wanting to talk to you because it makes me feel like im the most annoying person ever.
I hate feeling like ill always come last.
But knowing that I have to accept it.
&& that your bigger and better than me.
You dont have to deal with all this drama.
But I push it on you anyways.
I feel like shit.
I've called you twice crying and just expected you to
give everything up and be my night in shining armor and come to my rescue.
&& then im reminded. life doesnt work that way.
But I miss your smile and your touch.
Just everything that seemed to cheer me up.
It just all feels lost.
and now we're back to were we started.
Now that I know hes not there anymore.
That he could care less what happens to me.
When all along I thought he was my best friend.
Above everything else my best fucking friend.
&& I hate not being able to see you.
One night.
On unbelievably amazing night.
&& now its just alittle here alittle there.
I hate not wanting to talk to you because it makes me feel like im the most annoying person ever.
I hate feeling like ill always come last.
But knowing that I have to accept it.
&& that your bigger and better than me.
You dont have to deal with all this drama.
But I push it on you anyways.
I feel like shit.
I've called you twice crying and just expected you to
give everything up and be my night in shining armor and come to my rescue.
&& then im reminded. life doesnt work that way.
But I miss your smile and your touch.
Just everything that seemed to cheer me up.
It just all feels lost.
and now we're back to were we started.