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Its Christmas Day.. and today absolutely sucked.
Im so fucking stupid for even remotely thinking that it would happen.
That he'd actually care the way I wanted him to.
I got my fucking hopes up.. and for what?
&& after everything that happened im dragging myself down.
Because I wish he would call.. just to prove he cares at all.
Not even in the way I want him to. just period.
Anything.
Is killing me just to sit here.
Right now I just feel like a worthless blob of nothing.
Im so fucking stupid for even remotely thinking that it would happen.
That he'd actually care the way I wanted him to.
I got my fucking hopes up.. and for what?
&& after everything that happened im dragging myself down.
Because I wish he would call.. just to prove he cares at all.
Not even in the way I want him to. just period.
Anything.
Is killing me just to sit here.
Right now I just feel like a worthless blob of nothing.