Hopeless....
Why do I limit myself to this? It is so stupid of me to do this to myself all the time. You're a jerk to me, so I get mad then actually start not caring about you, and then you change your mood and it's like I stop everything just for you so I can have you pay me some attention. I am so funken dumb, I need to stop this. Why do you do this to me, why do you make me feel this way. I can't take it anymore. Why can't I let myself get over you!!?!?! Why, can someone please tell me why. It's not supposed to be like this. Why do you have such a god damn hold on me, it's really starting to get to me. It seems that no matter what I do all I think about is you, why the hell do I do this to myself. Can someone explain it? Probably not because it makes no sense, I can't even explain it to myself to make me feel better. I don't know if I'll actually give in to you, and I know if I do I'll regret it hardcore but not for the reasons most people would expect, it's because I'd want more. But why, there is no reason. I know I could never trust you, you tell more lies than you do the truth. I'm not even sure who the real you is, but that doesn't seem to stop me. dkfhdjhfhdkhfkjshdfdhkfhkdhfkhsdkjf!!!!!!!!!!!!! I don't know what to do with myself anymore, I need to let my feelings for you go, I just wish I knew how. Why is this so damn hard, it's not like we had that much. Why did you have such a huge impact on me I don't understand how you did that. I even hang out with your brother who is the total opposite of you and absoutely gorgeous and no there's nothing there I still think of you...Please just let me get over you....