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[amberfey]

So on Saturday I was watching "Of Mice and Men" and I got a call from my mom. (It was right after the dog was shot) She told me that my grandfather was about to die. Well we have had scares in the past, but this time I felt that it was real. Well I cried for a few hours, morning him I guess. I was not really that close to him, at least not as nearly as close to my dad's father, but I felt a real sense of loss. I was suprised that I had that reaction to him... Well today was my aunt's birthday, and I got a call from her and the first thing that I said was "Happy Birthday". Then I realized the reason that she was calling. She was calling me to tell me that grandpa died. She could not get a hold of my mom and I had to call her and break the news. That was hard... to tell my mom that her father had died.

I still have not shed tears since Saturday... I suppose that I am still in shock. I hope that I can go to the funeral but I do not know where it will be held at... I hope it is in El Paso and not Georgia. Either ways I think I will go and fell the immensity of it then. But I think I am Okay other than that. Just had to get it out. Thank you for letting me vent.

Oh by the way I am drunk right now. Hooray for that!!!!!