Dude, seriously
Apparently, sleep will not be happening anytime soon. Man, I am getting sick of this. That stupid trip got my already fucked up sleeping "schedule" even more fucked up.
I'd like to say that I'm going to stay awake all day and then go to bed at what I feel to be a decent hour...like 2 or 3am...but I know that I won't. I don't do caffeine (makes me shit and get all stomach hurty in any form, except maybe a few sodas but that won't keep me awake) and when I get tired, I get TIRED and there is no chance in hell I'm going to pass up the opportunity for a good nap. I figure that it will eventually work itself out.
In other news...I'm going through this thing where I'm attracted to this guy, mostly because he has a hot mouth and that's ALWAYS what gets me, and I know I could have him BUT I also know that it won't go anywhere. I mean, I know that my feelings will not get past the point they are currently at and he seems to be the type of guy where he would probably fall for me and then I'd end up hurting him...but of course, I'm selfish and wanna go for it anyway. I'm not going to, I think. I mean, I'm pretty sure that this is basically what happened with Randy and I (either that or it was the thing where he wanted me, he got me and then didn't want me anymore BECAUSE he got me. Conquest.) and I know how much that sucks but, y'know. At least I'm admitting it. I'd be willing to tell the guy this in advance. Really though, unless I'm drunk and feeling forward, chances are I will just continue acting like he pretty much doesn't exist. Yup.
So basically, my sex drive disappeared for like 3 months and now it's back with a vengeance. That sort of thing would make ANYONE get really selfish.
I'd like to say that I'm going to stay awake all day and then go to bed at what I feel to be a decent hour...like 2 or 3am...but I know that I won't. I don't do caffeine (makes me shit and get all stomach hurty in any form, except maybe a few sodas but that won't keep me awake) and when I get tired, I get TIRED and there is no chance in hell I'm going to pass up the opportunity for a good nap. I figure that it will eventually work itself out.
In other news...I'm going through this thing where I'm attracted to this guy, mostly because he has a hot mouth and that's ALWAYS what gets me, and I know I could have him BUT I also know that it won't go anywhere. I mean, I know that my feelings will not get past the point they are currently at and he seems to be the type of guy where he would probably fall for me and then I'd end up hurting him...but of course, I'm selfish and wanna go for it anyway. I'm not going to, I think. I mean, I'm pretty sure that this is basically what happened with Randy and I (either that or it was the thing where he wanted me, he got me and then didn't want me anymore BECAUSE he got me. Conquest.) and I know how much that sucks but, y'know. At least I'm admitting it. I'd be willing to tell the guy this in advance. Really though, unless I'm drunk and feeling forward, chances are I will just continue acting like he pretty much doesn't exist. Yup.
So basically, my sex drive disappeared for like 3 months and now it's back with a vengeance. That sort of thing would make ANYONE get really selfish.