The Cotton Candy anniversary
Out of the blue, Peyton told me yesterday that if Steve and I are really in love, it's okay with her if we get married. "Then you can be my mom," she said.
Heart. Flipped.
"Except we already have a mom!" Ember said.
Reality. Check. :)
I'm so crazy madly in love with Steve it seems like magic. Or like being drunk. He is so many things I didn't even know I wanted in a partner. I had no idea how much fun it is to *be with someone fun*. He laughs all the time. He's always smiling. He has the best energy ever of all time. He just fills me up with so much joy. It's so incredibly different from what I had gotten used to. I genuinely didn't know people could actually feel this way. I mistook complacency for happiness for *years*.
Being this happy feels phony. It feels like it can't actually be happening. It feels drug induced.
I'm just going to ride this train. And keep thanking the universe for putting so much bliss into my life.
(We decided that since the two year anniversary is cotton, two months is cotton candy. He gave me a pot of cotton candy and a key to his house. With a skull on it. I'm thinking he needs cotton candy vodka. And a key to my house. With Hello Kitty on it.)
Heart. Flipped.
"Except we already have a mom!" Ember said.
Reality. Check. :)
I'm so crazy madly in love with Steve it seems like magic. Or like being drunk. He is so many things I didn't even know I wanted in a partner. I had no idea how much fun it is to *be with someone fun*. He laughs all the time. He's always smiling. He has the best energy ever of all time. He just fills me up with so much joy. It's so incredibly different from what I had gotten used to. I genuinely didn't know people could actually feel this way. I mistook complacency for happiness for *years*.
Being this happy feels phony. It feels like it can't actually be happening. It feels drug induced.
I'm just going to ride this train. And keep thanking the universe for putting so much bliss into my life.
(We decided that since the two year anniversary is cotton, two months is cotton candy. He gave me a pot of cotton candy and a key to his house. With a skull on it. I'm thinking he needs cotton candy vodka. And a key to my house. With Hello Kitty on it.)