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I'm more emotionally detached from people currently than I've found myself in many years.
I don't know who to turn to. I know I have Tyler-- but someone else. I'm so concerned with emotions and doing the right thing that I forget about holding my ground and I feel that when I do, I'm wrong.
I feel disgusted with myself, my physical being. I feel guilty that I'm so self conscious.
I am disgusted with my personality-- because some how I've simply driven the people who matter most away. I feel null and void. I feel alone in a world full of people I know. I feel that every moment has me on the verge of tears. Simple confrontation makes me want to cry-- even when it isn't really a confrontation.
I am in the most simple description everything I had never imagined I would be. I never thought I'd find myself without a shoulder to lean on.
And what does one do in that situation?
I don't know who to turn to. I know I have Tyler-- but someone else. I'm so concerned with emotions and doing the right thing that I forget about holding my ground and I feel that when I do, I'm wrong.
I feel disgusted with myself, my physical being. I feel guilty that I'm so self conscious.
I am disgusted with my personality-- because some how I've simply driven the people who matter most away. I feel null and void. I feel alone in a world full of people I know. I feel that every moment has me on the verge of tears. Simple confrontation makes me want to cry-- even when it isn't really a confrontation.
I am in the most simple description everything I had never imagined I would be. I never thought I'd find myself without a shoulder to lean on.
And what does one do in that situation?