Arg.
I am so mad at my parents right now! They think I've been on the phone for hours lately and are trying to make it not happen. I haven't even been on the phone longer than an hour in all with anyone the past few weeks. And then they want to monitor the phone and all this stuff! They keep forcing us to do all this stuff, most of it is religion related. I believe in God and all that stuff, I go to church, I listen, all that stuff. I don't mind doing any of that, but when I get home I don't want them telling us want to do and making us doing all this stuff. "I want you to reflect and write everything down," etc. etc. Do they not understand the more they force us to do that stuff the more we rebel? If the truly believe why don't they pray for us and let God do his work? I don't believe they truly believe and have faith. If they do, it's low, that and they want to like everyone else at our church but they're so involved with everything else they don't notice it's all about them. Gosh, I've been keeping low and everything, not arguing and doing what I have been told, but out of the blue they have to go and giving me more strict stuff to follow, I really shouldn't be complaining but I want a break. I can't wait until I'm 18. By then I should be getting or have a car, graduated, going to college, etc. I refuse to go anywhere in here! I want my own life, I want to be able to decide for myself. They say their just protecting us, they can't do that. They can teach us right from wrong but they can't protect us. They can try, but they can't go everywhere we're going and scare away anything that might be harmful in the end. No, all they can do if hope they taught us well enough and hope we make the right decision and everything to be successful, go to church, all that stuff. I wish they would just understand that. I only have like 3 weeks left with two of my best friends who are both moving, and now they're complaining talking about what if someone liked you? What would you do? etc. etc. Right now, I hate them, they don't trust me at all, they think I'm going to end up being a hooker or something, I would never even think about it, just no. I know what I'm going to do, and I'm not going to waste it being stupid or whatever. I just hate them right now!