i fucked up
dont really update that much because no one ever reads my journal
so yeah yesterday was a horrible day....i felt soo fucking shitty and i still feel shitty...so yeah i was suppose to go to chelea's around 4 yesterday for a barbque that her family invited me to and that she invited me to also..but being dumbass me i went with kevin and chris and smoked and then passed out and didnt show up to chelsea's till 6:30...i ended up getting there and i could tell right away that i fucked up because i could see it in her eyes that she was mad at me and what i did with chris and kevin was the wrong thing to do because i promised her that i would show up at 4 and i didnt....she told me how she felt about me and then she told me to leave...so i went home and had the worst feeling about myself for the rest of the night...i didnt get ne sleep last night because i kept waking up like every 30 minutes because i couldnt stop thinking about chelsea....and i had the worst heartburn last night...it made me cry just to think about what i did...she doesnt deserve to be treated that way and i cant help but feel like i need to crawl into a deep and dark hole and spend the rest of my life there....im sorry for the way that i treated her yesterday....im sorry beyond comprehension....one things for certain though..i need to get my priorities straight...IM SORRY CHELSEA....
i wish....
so yeah yesterday was a horrible day....i felt soo fucking shitty and i still feel shitty...so yeah i was suppose to go to chelea's around 4 yesterday for a barbque that her family invited me to and that she invited me to also..but being dumbass me i went with kevin and chris and smoked and then passed out and didnt show up to chelsea's till 6:30...i ended up getting there and i could tell right away that i fucked up because i could see it in her eyes that she was mad at me and what i did with chris and kevin was the wrong thing to do because i promised her that i would show up at 4 and i didnt....she told me how she felt about me and then she told me to leave...so i went home and had the worst feeling about myself for the rest of the night...i didnt get ne sleep last night because i kept waking up like every 30 minutes because i couldnt stop thinking about chelsea....and i had the worst heartburn last night...it made me cry just to think about what i did...she doesnt deserve to be treated that way and i cant help but feel like i need to crawl into a deep and dark hole and spend the rest of my life there....im sorry for the way that i treated her yesterday....im sorry beyond comprehension....one things for certain though..i need to get my priorities straight...IM SORRY CHELSEA....
i wish....