One year older
It's been a year! I'm going to celebrate my aniversary this weekend or next weekend too! I'm so much happier now. Happier about that situation any ways. I hate how she was brought into it though. That was bullshit. It shouldn't be like that. She's a good person, she has the right to hangout with and see whomever she chooses, and people should respect her and her decisions. I love her, and have for many years. I'm glad she's been hanging out more.
Trip to Tulsa!! WOOHOO!! I'm planning a trip to Tulsa! I'm slightly aprehensive though b/c it's a trip I will be making all by myself. Yet, it's a trip I think is A)worth making and B)needed to be made. If he asked...I would say yes, and not think twice about it. However, if he never asks, then it wont bother me still. He's always going to be one of my best friends. I remember meeting him for the first time when I was like 15, maybe just turned 16, and I instantly knew I liked him. Knowing our age difference though and me being just a kid...not to mention I had a boyfriend at the time, I would have never thought about it. For years I never thought about it. I did this summer though, the first time I had seen him again shit It was actually probably in the spring, I thought about it. Yet, I pushed away never thinking that he would ever do anything with me or like me. Then he sent me a message on myspace that floored me. So I thought about it some more. Then he kissed me. I know he's such an arrogant asshole and I love that about him...I always have. The biggest ass to people, yet he's always been the nicest guy to me. I know i can party w/ him, get fucked up with him, I can say what I want, and where what I want and not feel confided to a cage because he's known for so long, and I think that's what he likes about me. We've talked for hours upon hours before. So if he doesn't ever ask, i'm not hurt by it, b/c it would most likely be for the best, and I know that he'd always be my friend, and we'll always be the same like it's been, and that's a great thing. However, if he does ask, I will say yes...Then we'll all see me turn into the biggest, red blushing cheeked girl ever! Ha! He called me babe over the phone two saturdays ago, b/c he called me even though he only had a few minutes to talk...he called me just to say hi, and then he called me again when he got a little more time. When he did that i became like this uber girl..and was like...awwwwww that's so fuckin sweet...hehehe he called me babe...he he he...yeah girly, it was weird. hahaha! Yeah, if he asked, i would so say yes.
HPF!!! HOLY SHIT I CANT FUCKING WAIT!! Now heres the like..shitty part to the 2nd paragraph and hpf....if he asks...i will infact say yes. Uh...then hpf shows up and what the hell am i supposed to do? Riiiightt... I'm making him go...if he doesn't ask..then uh...i'm doing what I do. :p Granted...I think even he would be understanding if he chose not to go...either way, im so not worried about it! I'm going to practice fire hooping and when I get there i'm getting a custom made black green and purple hoop! :D Im so happy!! yeah NAKED TWISTER!! While rolling down a hill!! jesus! I need to go to sleep so I can pick up dugan from school and start our working out before hpf routines! Gah!! EXCERSISE!! Haven't done it in years...except if you count sex..particularly sex in moms little fucking neisan...now THATS a workout! And one hell of a fun time! Dude, see I'm willing to give up sex with my fuck buddy...which i actually havent had sex with nor a desire too in like 2 months, and giving up banging other people, and giving up fucking a lot for ONE GUY! Isn't that like...insane? The one person I've ever met that if he asked I would say yes and not think twice about it nor wince, of course HAS to live like 1 1/2 - 2 hours away, and works all the time! Jeezy Chreezy...but eh...he's such an asshole! and I think it's like the cutest thing ever! Yeah, i'm weird...but eh..we've all kindof known that!
Plastic surgery! Still totally on my to do list! I can't fucking wait until I get it done, then I have to get some moles removed on my back and get some scarring on my back looked at and see if they could like lazer treat it or if there's anything to minimize it, and THEN oh yes..THEN i'm starting my back tattoos!
I'm finally going to start having full sized paychecks again, and planning on doing some over time too so I can have super big paychecks :D I'm so excited! There's a Petco in stillwater that i want to go shopping at for Brew and the other dogs too. I also still have to give mom her Yule present which is an eye appointment. I'd also like to take her into a dentist/orthodontist so I can get molds of her mouth and mine and prices for her denturers. I also need to go see my orthodontist about getting my effing retainers replaced. Yeah...that'll be like 400 dollars..eh. That blows. By the ways kiddies...what amber wants for her birthday: uh..good quality camping shit...harem pants, poi so dugan and i can do it together (hehe..you dirty minded people!), sarong and scarf (not neck scarf the scarfs you wear as tops), Pretty puppy stuff for the dogs, boots, lingerie, vinyl(you know the 'normal' ambe attire)...pillows, neon lights, pretty lights, black light posters. uh..yeah, i'm sure I can think of other crap, but everyone bitches about how I never give a list for ANYTHING so there ya go...there it fucking is..be happy! You know...happy happy joy joy! Oh, there's like a humungo list of movies too, and cd's, but eh..i'm not writing it right now. Dugan will kill me and i'll feel horrible (yes, i know it surprises my too that I have a heart) if I don't make it tomorrow. Stupid doctors appointment with kreger last like 2 fucking hours! But hey! I will now have less periods a year, and better skin! Thanks to Yas! Oh..yeah, and no babies either, AWESOME!!!
Ambe!
Trip to Tulsa!! WOOHOO!! I'm planning a trip to Tulsa! I'm slightly aprehensive though b/c it's a trip I will be making all by myself. Yet, it's a trip I think is A)worth making and B)needed to be made. If he asked...I would say yes, and not think twice about it. However, if he never asks, then it wont bother me still. He's always going to be one of my best friends. I remember meeting him for the first time when I was like 15, maybe just turned 16, and I instantly knew I liked him. Knowing our age difference though and me being just a kid...not to mention I had a boyfriend at the time, I would have never thought about it. For years I never thought about it. I did this summer though, the first time I had seen him again shit It was actually probably in the spring, I thought about it. Yet, I pushed away never thinking that he would ever do anything with me or like me. Then he sent me a message on myspace that floored me. So I thought about it some more. Then he kissed me. I know he's such an arrogant asshole and I love that about him...I always have. The biggest ass to people, yet he's always been the nicest guy to me. I know i can party w/ him, get fucked up with him, I can say what I want, and where what I want and not feel confided to a cage because he's known for so long, and I think that's what he likes about me. We've talked for hours upon hours before. So if he doesn't ever ask, i'm not hurt by it, b/c it would most likely be for the best, and I know that he'd always be my friend, and we'll always be the same like it's been, and that's a great thing. However, if he does ask, I will say yes...Then we'll all see me turn into the biggest, red blushing cheeked girl ever! Ha! He called me babe over the phone two saturdays ago, b/c he called me even though he only had a few minutes to talk...he called me just to say hi, and then he called me again when he got a little more time. When he did that i became like this uber girl..and was like...awwwwww that's so fuckin sweet...hehehe he called me babe...he he he...yeah girly, it was weird. hahaha! Yeah, if he asked, i would so say yes.
HPF!!! HOLY SHIT I CANT FUCKING WAIT!! Now heres the like..shitty part to the 2nd paragraph and hpf....if he asks...i will infact say yes. Uh...then hpf shows up and what the hell am i supposed to do? Riiiightt... I'm making him go...if he doesn't ask..then uh...i'm doing what I do. :p Granted...I think even he would be understanding if he chose not to go...either way, im so not worried about it! I'm going to practice fire hooping and when I get there i'm getting a custom made black green and purple hoop! :D Im so happy!! yeah NAKED TWISTER!! While rolling down a hill!! jesus! I need to go to sleep so I can pick up dugan from school and start our working out before hpf routines! Gah!! EXCERSISE!! Haven't done it in years...except if you count sex..particularly sex in moms little fucking neisan...now THATS a workout! And one hell of a fun time! Dude, see I'm willing to give up sex with my fuck buddy...which i actually havent had sex with nor a desire too in like 2 months, and giving up banging other people, and giving up fucking a lot for ONE GUY! Isn't that like...insane? The one person I've ever met that if he asked I would say yes and not think twice about it nor wince, of course HAS to live like 1 1/2 - 2 hours away, and works all the time! Jeezy Chreezy...but eh...he's such an asshole! and I think it's like the cutest thing ever! Yeah, i'm weird...but eh..we've all kindof known that!
Plastic surgery! Still totally on my to do list! I can't fucking wait until I get it done, then I have to get some moles removed on my back and get some scarring on my back looked at and see if they could like lazer treat it or if there's anything to minimize it, and THEN oh yes..THEN i'm starting my back tattoos!
I'm finally going to start having full sized paychecks again, and planning on doing some over time too so I can have super big paychecks :D I'm so excited! There's a Petco in stillwater that i want to go shopping at for Brew and the other dogs too. I also still have to give mom her Yule present which is an eye appointment. I'd also like to take her into a dentist/orthodontist so I can get molds of her mouth and mine and prices for her denturers. I also need to go see my orthodontist about getting my effing retainers replaced. Yeah...that'll be like 400 dollars..eh. That blows. By the ways kiddies...what amber wants for her birthday: uh..good quality camping shit...harem pants, poi so dugan and i can do it together (hehe..you dirty minded people!), sarong and scarf (not neck scarf the scarfs you wear as tops), Pretty puppy stuff for the dogs, boots, lingerie, vinyl(you know the 'normal' ambe attire)...pillows, neon lights, pretty lights, black light posters. uh..yeah, i'm sure I can think of other crap, but everyone bitches about how I never give a list for ANYTHING so there ya go...there it fucking is..be happy! You know...happy happy joy joy! Oh, there's like a humungo list of movies too, and cd's, but eh..i'm not writing it right now. Dugan will kill me and i'll feel horrible (yes, i know it surprises my too that I have a heart) if I don't make it tomorrow. Stupid doctors appointment with kreger last like 2 fucking hours! But hey! I will now have less periods a year, and better skin! Thanks to Yas! Oh..yeah, and no babies either, AWESOME!!!
Ambe!