Kool Aid for the Masses
We all have one, that one family member who makes you cringe at the mention of their name, you know the one I'm talking about. For me that person is my sister. She hasn't ever been what I would consider "stable" but over the last five months she has rapidly declined. She got married, her husband left for the Army and she has settled into a sedintary way of life that not only is not healthy but it's ruining what little bit of mental stability she had. She has gained at least 20lbs, she barely leaves her house, she sleeps all day long (even though she tries to pretend she doesn't) and has gotten it in her head that she has a chemical imbalance. She hasn't seen a psychiatrist or any other sort of professional with an inkling as to what may or may not be wrong with her. She has gotten her doctor to issue her Prozac, which she now claims is not working for her and she's having "suicidal thoughts". Am I alarmed by this, of course I am but I also know my sister. She has a long and well documented history of lying just for the sake of lying and on top of that she also has been gifted with a flair for the dramatics. This may sound harsh but I just don't know if I can believe a word that comes out of her mouth and on top of all this, she is telling her husband all these crazy things. He is in the Army, trying to finish his training so they can begin their life together.....and now he has to deal with this too?
Last night though, that was the final straw for me. I consider my husband to probably be the best man living on this planet, he is kind, he is considerate and he cares about people (obviously he is the better of the two in this marriage, he's a far better person than I lol) Last night, he went to my sisters house to help her with something and she started telling him ALLL this bullshit going on with her and he got upset. Deep down, I really feel like she gets some kind of sick pleasure out of upsetting people. He tried telling her that she should see someone who can help her with her issues and not just medicate her. He tried telling her that drinking while taking Prozac is probably a really bad idea and that might be where the suicidal thoughts come from.....but she want nothing to do with rationale. I think she -wants- to have something wrong with her and that in itself is disturbing to me. She refused to call our Dad on Fathers Day, she stays home instead of coming to family functions....it's distressing but she seems to....enjoy the fact that we are all up in arms over her behavior. I know it may sound cold but I'm really getting to the point I don't want to hear it. Every time the phone rings and I see it's her number, I debate about answering because it's always some new turmoil, some new and drastic drama.....I'm worn out and part of me feels guilty for it. What if she does do something to herself? I'll feel horrible for not trying to do something but she is reluctant to change or help herself. I'm just worn out.....
Last night though, that was the final straw for me. I consider my husband to probably be the best man living on this planet, he is kind, he is considerate and he cares about people (obviously he is the better of the two in this marriage, he's a far better person than I lol) Last night, he went to my sisters house to help her with something and she started telling him ALLL this bullshit going on with her and he got upset. Deep down, I really feel like she gets some kind of sick pleasure out of upsetting people. He tried telling her that she should see someone who can help her with her issues and not just medicate her. He tried telling her that drinking while taking Prozac is probably a really bad idea and that might be where the suicidal thoughts come from.....but she want nothing to do with rationale. I think she -wants- to have something wrong with her and that in itself is disturbing to me. She refused to call our Dad on Fathers Day, she stays home instead of coming to family functions....it's distressing but she seems to....enjoy the fact that we are all up in arms over her behavior. I know it may sound cold but I'm really getting to the point I don't want to hear it. Every time the phone rings and I see it's her number, I debate about answering because it's always some new turmoil, some new and drastic drama.....I'm worn out and part of me feels guilty for it. What if she does do something to herself? I'll feel horrible for not trying to do something but she is reluctant to change or help herself. I'm just worn out.....