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my job is killing me... i need to stop thinking about other people and start thinking about myself.... I AM GETTING WRITIN UP... kurtus needed someone to take his shift last night and i knew and he knew i had a doc appointment and i thought he would actually go cuz i took his spot at work i didnt think i was ganna end up with no sleep and ask some one to cover my shift i didnt think joanna was ganna tell me to go to sleep and just be here at 5 and come to the fact she doesnt even cover me for a couple of hours what does she think she was the manager. if she didnt had said that i was just ganna go to work running on empty... know im getting wrote up this sux.
anyways i wonder why kurtus is so scared to realize life itself Our life!!! i wish i can find what it takes to get him back in me and my babys life. he tells me how much he care's and he tells me how much he is trying and he is on my side but i wish he had some action with his word. when i was crying in his car this morning i was waiting for him to just hold me and tell me everything is ganna be alright. but i guess im not as good enough. he told me that he doesnt know what it take for him to come back to me, but he did say that ifd it takes for me to be in labor then he is sorry. im tierd of trying to convincing him that he neends me he tells me him self though he tells me that i make him happy and all this other shit. then why is he throwing it away all i want is for him to come home........ I LOVE YOU KURTUS please come back home... see thats his problem he told me he is all about his kid'SSS but im not ganna tell him to get over the past but thats what i had to tell my self if i wanted to move on and have a real life and i did and i so happendly collided with some one the same and that need to learn the same i went through. but i just want kurtus to realize that his kids are always with him and that he is ganna have one for sure and what ever he dreamed of doing with them he can do with his kid know and his girl.... let the past go and let the futur flow but with out US together it seems so impossible cuz he is dwelling on the past. i just wish he can feel stronger about this whole situation.. kurtus if u read this call me or come over please i just want you to hold me and tell u how much u mean to me..please i love you so much
melissa and kurtus hagerman hehe
claudio james henry hagerman
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cambria hagerman
sorry kurt i am so moody