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ah...the summer is almost over...and it has really been a life-changing experience for me.
As far as relationships go, it has been the hardest time of my life. Out of my 6 very close friends, 5 of us have stayed in a depression the last few weeks. It's sad that in a time of need, none of us had the energy to pull the others back up because they couldn't help themselves. I do believe we've all almost overcome the whole experience emotionally, although I'm sure we will never forget how we've felt these last few weeks. I've been on a few dates...none that were all that impressive. I have another one coming up this week and I really do hope it goes better than the last one.
I've also came to the realization that I've outgrown my current lifestyle. It seems like having "fun" is too stressful now. Over the last 3 years I've gotten the image of being "wild" Of course, I've never seen myself this way, but if you were to hear from other people...I drink, smoke, and screw more than most. Where people get their info, we may never know. Anyways...I have made mistakes and I've decided to leave all that behind me this year. I quit smoking today...threw the pack OUT THE WINDOW. Tomorrow I plan on cleaning out my car to get all those damn ashes out. Since a few friends are now most likely going to jail... I've dropped every illegal habit I ever had...as casual and harmless as it may have been. I'm done with it all. I'm honestly ready to grow up and quit all this bullshit that's only hurting myself. So... maybe I'll finally find happiness...perhaps* =) It's sad that once I quit having "bad fun" that there's really nothing else to do around here.
Anyways..work is going well..school starts soon. There doesn't seem to be much time for anythign these days..but maybe that's a good thing*
but i'm out... much love to my ladies... and the few boys i still plan to associate with* =)
nite nite
As far as relationships go, it has been the hardest time of my life. Out of my 6 very close friends, 5 of us have stayed in a depression the last few weeks. It's sad that in a time of need, none of us had the energy to pull the others back up because they couldn't help themselves. I do believe we've all almost overcome the whole experience emotionally, although I'm sure we will never forget how we've felt these last few weeks. I've been on a few dates...none that were all that impressive. I have another one coming up this week and I really do hope it goes better than the last one.
I've also came to the realization that I've outgrown my current lifestyle. It seems like having "fun" is too stressful now. Over the last 3 years I've gotten the image of being "wild" Of course, I've never seen myself this way, but if you were to hear from other people...I drink, smoke, and screw more than most. Where people get their info, we may never know. Anyways...I have made mistakes and I've decided to leave all that behind me this year. I quit smoking today...threw the pack OUT THE WINDOW. Tomorrow I plan on cleaning out my car to get all those damn ashes out. Since a few friends are now most likely going to jail... I've dropped every illegal habit I ever had...as casual and harmless as it may have been. I'm done with it all. I'm honestly ready to grow up and quit all this bullshit that's only hurting myself. So... maybe I'll finally find happiness...perhaps* =) It's sad that once I quit having "bad fun" that there's really nothing else to do around here.
Anyways..work is going well..school starts soon. There doesn't seem to be much time for anythign these days..but maybe that's a good thing*
but i'm out... much love to my ladies... and the few boys i still plan to associate with* =)
nite nite