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Didn't off myself or anything. I just needed to write those things some neverwhere to get the rattle dissipated. But not so neverwhere that I can't go summon up their hindsight wisdom.
Wasted approximately $175 in the last 8 days. Money stratagem is laborious mentally and arduous emotionally.
Don't want to spend the waking hour and a half or the emotional energy to watch the Oscars tonight.Yet... The art of film making is so damn compelling to me; deep in my mind structural bones compelling. I can just as easily read about why these films are stand outs but part of me wants to see the moment, the face of the person whose work is judged superior. Capture their drive for it.
There are only a few regrets in my life. I am lucky. My jumbo is that I did not pursue film making and story telling when opportunity was a turning and open elevation to me.
Three of my children are story tellers. I will push them.
One is a warrior. I'm going to just step out of that one's way.
One is strange. Strange, curious and still tender young. I will just watch for his star sparks.
Wasted approximately $175 in the last 8 days. Money stratagem is laborious mentally and arduous emotionally.
Don't want to spend the waking hour and a half or the emotional energy to watch the Oscars tonight.Yet... The art of film making is so damn compelling to me; deep in my mind structural bones compelling. I can just as easily read about why these films are stand outs but part of me wants to see the moment, the face of the person whose work is judged superior. Capture their drive for it.
There are only a few regrets in my life. I am lucky. My jumbo is that I did not pursue film making and story telling when opportunity was a turning and open elevation to me.
Three of my children are story tellers. I will push them.
One is a warrior. I'm going to just step out of that one's way.
One is strange. Strange, curious and still tender young. I will just watch for his star sparks.