wangst
Ok so I'm now 21...yay, I think. Thanks to
myworldmytrue for the birthday wishes! and omg please dont leave lj :(
Bleh so I dont even have that much to say really. I was totally prepared to write an emo entry last night but I got over it today haha.
So my best friend Alex now has a boyfriend, her first one and I dont now how I feel about it. She's happy and thats the important thing but I just dont know where I stand now thats all. Like the relationship itself has been a little complicated to start with, well she had a few worries when they were just dating like him moving to fast and stuff. For example on their second date he said he'd like to take her to thailand and then on their third date he said "i can see by the way that you talk about your brother that he really loves you, but I will love you more". You know full on stuff like that. He also bought her an expensive phone the other day, even though theyhave only been together officially for about a week. But he is ethnic and she talked to her sister in law about it (who is Turkish) and she said that its a cultural thing. Also her parents aren't happy about it, 1 because he is 28 (she only turned 20 in June) 2 because he is Muslim. Her parents are Christian (they go to church every week and go to bible studies and stuff) so obviously they'd prefer her dating someone who is either christian or a closely related religion. Apparently her dad was really upset about it and said "any other mainstream religion but muslim". Awkward! Well anyway she is happy and I think she is just not caring about anything else at the moment just seeing where it goes. As I said before though I dont really know where I stand with her anymore though. Like before we always used to talk and say "if I ever do this in a relationship make sure you tell me how annoying I'm being" or "make sure you always tell me what you really think about it" etc. But as much as anybody says these things as soon as they are actually in a relationship it changes. Like I dont want to be the friend who got jealous and weird. I know its selfish of me but I wanted her to be single because she's mine, I dont want to give her up I mean we dont get to see enough of each other as it is and now I'll have a bf to contend with. Also I guess its just another thing to make her different from me... I know that sounds silly but its like first she went away to uni and became cool which is so not what I am but now she has a boyfriendwhich puts her on the other side of the line you know? Like she's part of another club now that I'm not. Not that I want to be part of that club, I'm completely happy being single to the point that I really couldn't actually be bothered having a relationship because its to much effort and drama and I just enjoy spending time with my friends and on my own. Maybe that makes me immature but I dont care.
I guess this turned out to be more of a whinge than I intended...my bad. Well its not like anybody reads this anyway and if you are feel free to tell me how silly I'm being, I know I am.