this is a long rant that will probably embaress me in 5, 4,3...
So, I'm going to Canada on Monday. I'm not nearly as jazzed about this as I would normally be, honestly the idea of sitting in a quiet room full of obscure realtives who are all feeling obscurely or not so obscurely depressed, does not sound particularly appealing. I tend to hold grudges against people I only see when somebody dies. I shouldn't, I know, but it's an assosiation thing. Like ink blot testing.
Also, nothing is suppposed to go wrong in Canada. I don't know when I decided that. Probably before I knew how to speak. It has something to do with going there over the summer, and with friends and camping and cookie jars. I like my dilusions. I don't want them shattered.
Please do not forget about me whilst I am away. I feel really certian that you will. Most of you, or at leat a couple of you. I'll only be gone a week, but lately I've been feeling pretty dire all the time, and a week seems like a pretty long time to be gone.
On the bright side, my cousin Nathan is a genuis times ten. I am actually looking forward to seeing him. He has this bike/skate/snowboard/etc shop, and he was trying to think of a slogan, or something along those lines. All the other skater shops had really dumb slogans, and they all basically insisted they were the best, they were wonderful, and othersuch exhausted cliches. So Nathan decided he couldn't possibly do that, that he had to do something different, so he thought:hey, how about I just say I really suck? And he did. And he has lots of teeshirts that say 'Factory Ride Sucks' (Factory Ride being his store.) He is pretty much one of the more interesting people I have met. Once I explored the skeletal framework of his basement. And that's about it.
Hm. I hate my classes this trimester. I hated them last tri, too. Except English, I suppose. All but two of my classes are locked, so It's like,freaking impossible to get into any electives.I'm so frustrated, and I can't even try to change things again on monday because hey, guess what, I'll be gone?
This is probably bad: I hate a lot of things lately. And pretty much just feel like a second-rate version of various people I know. I don't really like myself at all lately. I feel kind of sour and icky inside. I think I need to douse myself in ice water. I don't want to be emo or selfish or as irritating as I know I sound right now. I don't normally feel like this or have such strong emo tendancys. Please stop me before I do something even more embaressing and or sound even more rediculous. (If you don't think I sound that bad it's because you aren't inside my head.)
Pretty much the only things I actually like lately are cocktail umbrellas.
Also, nothing is suppposed to go wrong in Canada. I don't know when I decided that. Probably before I knew how to speak. It has something to do with going there over the summer, and with friends and camping and cookie jars. I like my dilusions. I don't want them shattered.
Please do not forget about me whilst I am away. I feel really certian that you will. Most of you, or at leat a couple of you. I'll only be gone a week, but lately I've been feeling pretty dire all the time, and a week seems like a pretty long time to be gone.
On the bright side, my cousin Nathan is a genuis times ten. I am actually looking forward to seeing him. He has this bike/skate/snowboard/etc shop, and he was trying to think of a slogan, or something along those lines. All the other skater shops had really dumb slogans, and they all basically insisted they were the best, they were wonderful, and othersuch exhausted cliches. So Nathan decided he couldn't possibly do that, that he had to do something different, so he thought:hey, how about I just say I really suck? And he did. And he has lots of teeshirts that say 'Factory Ride Sucks' (Factory Ride being his store.) He is pretty much one of the more interesting people I have met. Once I explored the skeletal framework of his basement. And that's about it.
Hm. I hate my classes this trimester. I hated them last tri, too. Except English, I suppose. All but two of my classes are locked, so It's like,freaking impossible to get into any electives.I'm so frustrated, and I can't even try to change things again on monday because hey, guess what, I'll be gone?
This is probably bad: I hate a lot of things lately. And pretty much just feel like a second-rate version of various people I know. I don't really like myself at all lately. I feel kind of sour and icky inside. I think I need to douse myself in ice water. I don't want to be emo or selfish or as irritating as I know I sound right now. I don't normally feel like this or have such strong emo tendancys. Please stop me before I do something even more embaressing and or sound even more rediculous. (If you don't think I sound that bad it's because you aren't inside my head.)
Pretty much the only things I actually like lately are cocktail umbrellas.