i'm dreaming of a *green* candlemas...
sooo... another day older and deeper in debt.. sort of. well at least i keep my debts pretty well paid off. aNyWAyS.. i'm 22 today.. yay.. i feel old. today, well, starting with last night, kinda just *blew*.
so last night i go out drinking with a dude named bruce and his buddy steiner (i think that was his name).. two sniper guys from 4th ID that are deploying next tuesday. we go to hero's (some rock club in harker heights i've been to a few times before) and the band there sucks. we run across the street to some place called ernie's, it's alright but there's too many people there (i think). i'm just not one of those people that really -has- to go out and start conversations with random strangers, but apparently bruce and his buddy are. that's cool, whatever. i just dig chilling by myself or whoever is sitting by me and i don't have to be some sort of social whore.. errr, butterfly i mean.. and get everyone to like me by kissing their asses. one main reason why i can't stand fake preppy people.
AND I STILL CAN'T STAND 11Bs (for all you civilians/non-army people, that's the -infantry-) because most of the time they are high-strung pigs that don't know what it means to have respect for anyone, namely women. they really seem to love tooting their own horns.. and it bugs the shit out of me. yeah. don't need to see your ego -and- hear about it too.
change of subject...
i talked to shaun a couple of days ago (my EX fiancee, dude i met in training quite some time back) and found out why he got booted from the army. hmm. drugs and alcohol in iraq (aside from the obvious illegal thing you can't drink over there either. i'm not bothered by that as much as the fact that he had this air about him, like he thought he was better than everyone now that he got booted. i hate that shit. not even the same shaun i knew a year and a half ago. what is he doing? selling drugs and doing under-the-table jobs. would i want to raise my kids with someone like that? i didn't think it was a chance worth taking, and he just kept pissing me off with his bs so i broke it off. then, i met -sean-, my husband. but anyways, point is, -shaun-(EX) didn't really think about what he'd do if i had married him instead, and certainly didn't think about what we would have done if we would have had kids. i don't know. it's not important now but sometimes just thinking about it just pisses me off. what an idiot.
anyways, i'd like to get out too but i'd either have to get really hurt or knocked up and i'm not willing to do that. but i'm going to go cuz i feel like passing the fuck out right now.
one a lighter note: I'LL BE BACK HOME FOR A FEW WEEKS STARTING NEXT FRIDAY!!!!!
so last night i go out drinking with a dude named bruce and his buddy steiner (i think that was his name).. two sniper guys from 4th ID that are deploying next tuesday. we go to hero's (some rock club in harker heights i've been to a few times before) and the band there sucks. we run across the street to some place called ernie's, it's alright but there's too many people there (i think). i'm just not one of those people that really -has- to go out and start conversations with random strangers, but apparently bruce and his buddy are. that's cool, whatever. i just dig chilling by myself or whoever is sitting by me and i don't have to be some sort of social whore.. errr, butterfly i mean.. and get everyone to like me by kissing their asses. one main reason why i can't stand fake preppy people.
AND I STILL CAN'T STAND 11Bs (for all you civilians/non-army people, that's the -infantry-) because most of the time they are high-strung pigs that don't know what it means to have respect for anyone, namely women. they really seem to love tooting their own horns.. and it bugs the shit out of me. yeah. don't need to see your ego -and- hear about it too.
change of subject...
i talked to shaun a couple of days ago (my EX fiancee, dude i met in training quite some time back) and found out why he got booted from the army. hmm. drugs and alcohol in iraq (aside from the obvious illegal thing you can't drink over there either. i'm not bothered by that as much as the fact that he had this air about him, like he thought he was better than everyone now that he got booted. i hate that shit. not even the same shaun i knew a year and a half ago. what is he doing? selling drugs and doing under-the-table jobs. would i want to raise my kids with someone like that? i didn't think it was a chance worth taking, and he just kept pissing me off with his bs so i broke it off. then, i met -sean-, my husband. but anyways, point is, -shaun-(EX) didn't really think about what he'd do if i had married him instead, and certainly didn't think about what we would have done if we would have had kids. i don't know. it's not important now but sometimes just thinking about it just pisses me off. what an idiot.
anyways, i'd like to get out too but i'd either have to get really hurt or knocked up and i'm not willing to do that. but i'm going to go cuz i feel like passing the fuck out right now.
one a lighter note: I'LL BE BACK HOME FOR A FEW WEEKS STARTING NEXT FRIDAY!!!!!