keepin' it together...
Things are a bit of a whirlwind. Thank the gods that the weather has turned & we are more firmly in the season that Kaitlyn and I love the best.
I know when K & I first picked our date, there were "October? Really? You don't want May or June?" discussions... I am pleased to note that October was the correct choice - because if I were dangling on the brink of insanity during any other time of the year, I'd be sending pipe bombs instead of thank you notes by now.
As it is, by the end of the day, I tend to curl up near an open window and sip from a mug of tea (or hot cocoa! which has made its triumphant return to the seasonal shelf in my pantry)... I've been watching the moon, and counting the stars. In between vendor phone calls & overly detailed emails, I'm fluffing out the comforter and packing away the summer quilts.
I need to get out to the garden and rake the leaves that have already begun to fall.
There have been openings in the leadership positions of the guild, and so we've heard a bit recently about the vision and mission statement of our particular organization. Phrases like "service leadership" and "there are no perks, the work is the reward" have come back into my life, like they were never really gone in the first place.
It's like yesterday I fell asleep while someone whispered serviam, serviam, ad maiorem Dei gloriam... I woke up this morning talking with Anira and Celrik about being (wo)men for others. Feels like I was never really resting in between.
I told them that I'm on board, but can't commit right now. It's all in the timing really - I'm no good to anyone broken & I can't break again - I can't break again. Too many times in the past week alone, between regular work and wedding planning, I've honestly felt myself sliding down into a place I thought vacated, filled with cement, and layered with turf. I told them that (I'm flattered, and I love it, and I wouldn't want to be anywhere else) - I won't make promises that I can't keep... and right now, I can't guarantee that I'll be able to keep them.
It's because it means so much to me, that I'm backing away. Not forever; just right now. I was raised to this, and praise be that I've found it again - this time, in a format that isn't doomed from the start (as some of the other leadership positions were).
I can honestly say that I'm really excited about the future here. I'm looking forward to the time when I *can* (and I *will*)... Just, please gods, by all things holy - get me safely past October 10th, first?
...
I'm looking at these sleeves, and wondering if I ought to go down to David's Bridal & get a pair... just to be on the safe side.
Is that bad?
I know when K & I first picked our date, there were "October? Really? You don't want May or June?" discussions... I am pleased to note that October was the correct choice - because if I were dangling on the brink of insanity during any other time of the year, I'd be sending pipe bombs instead of thank you notes by now.
As it is, by the end of the day, I tend to curl up near an open window and sip from a mug of tea (or hot cocoa! which has made its triumphant return to the seasonal shelf in my pantry)... I've been watching the moon, and counting the stars. In between vendor phone calls & overly detailed emails, I'm fluffing out the comforter and packing away the summer quilts.
I need to get out to the garden and rake the leaves that have already begun to fall.
There have been openings in the leadership positions of the guild, and so we've heard a bit recently about the vision and mission statement of our particular organization. Phrases like "service leadership" and "there are no perks, the work is the reward" have come back into my life, like they were never really gone in the first place.
It's like yesterday I fell asleep while someone whispered serviam, serviam, ad maiorem Dei gloriam... I woke up this morning talking with Anira and Celrik about being (wo)men for others. Feels like I was never really resting in between.
I told them that I'm on board, but can't commit right now. It's all in the timing really - I'm no good to anyone broken & I can't break again - I can't break again. Too many times in the past week alone, between regular work and wedding planning, I've honestly felt myself sliding down into a place I thought vacated, filled with cement, and layered with turf. I told them that (I'm flattered, and I love it, and I wouldn't want to be anywhere else) - I won't make promises that I can't keep... and right now, I can't guarantee that I'll be able to keep them.
It's because it means so much to me, that I'm backing away. Not forever; just right now. I was raised to this, and praise be that I've found it again - this time, in a format that isn't doomed from the start (as some of the other leadership positions were).
I can honestly say that I'm really excited about the future here. I'm looking forward to the time when I *can* (and I *will*)... Just, please gods, by all things holy - get me safely past October 10th, first?
...
I'm looking at these sleeves, and wondering if I ought to go down to David's Bridal & get a pair... just to be on the safe side.
Is that bad?