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fuck this fuck everything
i thought you would understand.
i feel like the goblin king in labyrinth."everything i've done i've done for you. I move the stars for no one."
I have been taking ever-so-precious care to keep up our friendship and to tiptoe around your feelings so that the pain you feel would be lessened.
Has anyone cared how i've felt? I have a right to have feelings too you know.
things weren't working for me. I wasn't going to stay with you forever that way, and things werne't going anywhere. That's not fair to anyone. I thought you understood. I took interest in your feelings, because i do care. something i regret because that kindess has just been tossed back in my face along with insults. There is no appreciation from you that i didn't just leave you high and dry. I could have, you know. I could have just said "we're over" with no explanation or antyhind. I could have ignored you. But no. I didn't. I gave everything i could give as far as feelings and cooperation and honest effort goes.
I have feelings.
my feelings are valid.
Instead of any way of venting, or sympathy or mutual cooperation i get insults.
Ask anyone. None of my friends can believe i stayed with you as long as i did. Everyone says that i shouldn't maintain a relationship with you.
I bet when you and those girls were talking about me they called me a bitch. I bet they said rude things about me to make it seem like "poor you. Poor Bobby. What did that big nasty mean girl do to you. We'll make it better".And i'm sure, all the while, you didn't defend me once. Did you?
so yes, i'm the bitch.
i'm the one who's wrong.
I have no feelings.
tell yourself whatever helps, but just know that i'm a person too.I'm not just something here exclusively for you. I'm not going to have your back if you turn it on me.
"Your eyes can be so cruel.
Just as i can be so cruel.
though i do believe in you.
Yes i do live without your sunlight
love without your heatbeat
I can't live within you."
thank you sincerely for all the tears.
i thought you would understand.
i feel like the goblin king in labyrinth."everything i've done i've done for you. I move the stars for no one."
I have been taking ever-so-precious care to keep up our friendship and to tiptoe around your feelings so that the pain you feel would be lessened.
Has anyone cared how i've felt? I have a right to have feelings too you know.
things weren't working for me. I wasn't going to stay with you forever that way, and things werne't going anywhere. That's not fair to anyone. I thought you understood. I took interest in your feelings, because i do care. something i regret because that kindess has just been tossed back in my face along with insults. There is no appreciation from you that i didn't just leave you high and dry. I could have, you know. I could have just said "we're over" with no explanation or antyhind. I could have ignored you. But no. I didn't. I gave everything i could give as far as feelings and cooperation and honest effort goes.
I have feelings.
my feelings are valid.
Instead of any way of venting, or sympathy or mutual cooperation i get insults.
Ask anyone. None of my friends can believe i stayed with you as long as i did. Everyone says that i shouldn't maintain a relationship with you.
I bet when you and those girls were talking about me they called me a bitch. I bet they said rude things about me to make it seem like "poor you. Poor Bobby. What did that big nasty mean girl do to you. We'll make it better".And i'm sure, all the while, you didn't defend me once. Did you?
so yes, i'm the bitch.
i'm the one who's wrong.
I have no feelings.
tell yourself whatever helps, but just know that i'm a person too.I'm not just something here exclusively for you. I'm not going to have your back if you turn it on me.
"Your eyes can be so cruel.
Just as i can be so cruel.
though i do believe in you.
Yes i do live without your sunlight
love without your heatbeat
I can't live within you."
thank you sincerely for all the tears.