To Kibum
Title: To Kibum
Author: amaru_chan
Pairings: Onkey
Ratings: G
Genre: Angst
Summary: When Jinki read Kibum's letter.
This is not my first fic, but first onkey fic. pls be understanding ^^.
English is not my native language, so please bear with some grammar mistakes here and there. Hope you like it. Sorry if it’s fail… ^^;;
To Kibum
Dear Jinki Hyung,
Hyung, how are you? I bet you’ve grown a bit height than last year =P. Today is our 5th anniversary, you remember? Yaay, congratulation shinee!! ^^. Sorry I can’t celebrate with you guys.
How’s Taemin and Minho? Are they getting better? I’m confident they are getting better though, how old they are actually, get rid of those shyness auras guys XD. Ah, is Taemin regularly eating, please remind him if he isn’t. Hey Taemin! Jinki hyung is watching over you, be prepared, be a good kid ^^. Minho, you too, don’t overwork yourself. And tell that to Jinki hyung as well because he won’t listen to me, I already told him like hundred times =,=.
This year also I wonder about Jonghyun, does he already get his driving license? Or not yet, I still clearly remember about him broken his parent’s car. We sat at the back when he tried to park the car that night, unfortunately he didn’t see his front LOL… do you remember his face? I will laugh each time I remembered, he had those widened eyes and lousy screamed when he realized he actually hit the edge of the gate. He had to spend some money in order to repair the car’s front light and windows, careless stupid. xD but yeah, hopefully he will get the driving license sooner or later, I knew he die for it.
How are the schedules? Tell our manager to arrange some free days (or months Xp), you deserve it, no... We deserve it ^0^. I’m sorry I can’t accompany you to go to Daegu. How about you go there by yourself and meet my parents, so you guys can talk longer. Uhm... I really hope you could meet them at least once. They like oranges, go buy some before visiting them =P.
Hyuung, I miss you so much that you can’t imagine. Or did you miss me much more and I couldn’t imagine? Hahah, I’m making no sense here. Okay, I still miss you though. How are you? Healthy? Please take good care of yourself. Hyung, I can’t make any spicy chicken for you anymore, but that doesn’t mean you couldn’t buy that at some restaurants. I really hope you miss my cooking =D. Ah! please find the recipe of that spicy chicken inside the other envelope, don’t mix between sugar and salt, and you have to remember that there is instant pepper sell in the stores, you don’t need to blend it again (>o<). Ask Jonghyun for help, I’ve taught him once about cooking chicken. Hopefully he’d still remember. ^^
Jinki hyung, what did I miss? I believe many things had happened. I just wished you could write a replied letter to me. Addressed to whom? Just write To Kibum at the edge of the envelope, I will knew that you’ve wrote that for me. I don’t need to open it though, I knew what’s inside already, yes, I can read the letter inside one closed envelope, I’m such an almighty you guys already knew about that XP.
Jinki hyung, I’m sorry for all the troubles I’ve caused before. You’ve been a great leader for me. You taught me a lot of things, a lot of things that I could remember. You like my own big brother, and maybe more than that, but I’m just glad we’re not related, really. Hyung… I wish I could turn back the time. I hope to be able to hear you singing once again. And see you tripped at some stage, well… your clumsiness win my heart haha.
Hyung, it’s me who sent you two chocolates boxes at your birthday. I said I didn’t know who sent them to you, sorry again for being a liar before. I knew you like cashew flavored, that’s why I bought two for you. Thanks for eating them up ^^.
Oh! It’s already too long, I can’t believe I just wrote long letter. Okay, I don’t want to make it quick but I have to.
One question, Can you not forget me? I hope you could remember me in your heart, but its okay even if it’s only in your mind. I still want to be remembered though. Sorry for being selfish, Hyung.
I don’t want to be sound so cheesy but you have to know… I’m sorry I can’t tell you until now… yeah, maybe you already know. I knew it. Damn it, come on Kibum. Just write it!! >0<…
…
I love you, Lee Jinki.
… Phew. My confession at last >.<… maybe I was thinking too much before so that I couldn’t tell you a thing. I could only give you some signals. And I was wrong, because it’s you whom I’ve sent the signals to. I should have been more straight =P haha.
Yes, this is it. My intention is only to confess to you in the beginning, but it seems longer that it should be when I wrote it. Now, I have nothing left to tell, I just regret that I couldn’t say it by seeing you in person. I’m sorry Jinki hyung, I really wish I could turn back the time. You know, nobody can.
Hyung, I’ll be going first. Please tell Jonghyun, Taemin, and Minho that I will always remember them. I’m going to miss them much. And you much more =D... Hyung, I’m sorry I’m not that strong. I’m sorry for letting this illness killing me. I’ve tried my best, but sometimes it just won’t go your way. I’m sorry I could only write in computer, I didn’t have enough strength to use a pen.
Last and the least,
Goodbye, Jinki Hyung and thank you.
With Love
Kibum.
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Kibum’s condition was getting worse each day. And today, at Shinee's 5th anniversary, Kibum’s giving up. He rests in a deep sleep. Sleep that he will never be able to wake up anymore.
The letter Kibum’s left is at Jinki’s hand, soaked, from tears. If only Jinki could turn back the time, if only Jinki was brave enough.
Jinki lets his tears fall down his cheeks. He closes his eyes, holding back his tears as he breathes deeply.
I’ve loved you since the beginning.
If only Jinki was brave enough, Kibum would be able to hear it.
-The end-
Yes, this is shinee fic. from whom i got my fandom back. ^^
hope you like this. enjoy reading.
Author: amaru_chan
Pairings: Onkey
Ratings: G
Genre: Angst
Summary: When Jinki read Kibum's letter.
This is not my first fic, but first onkey fic. pls be understanding ^^.
English is not my native language, so please bear with some grammar mistakes here and there. Hope you like it. Sorry if it’s fail… ^^;;
To Kibum
Dear Jinki Hyung,
Hyung, how are you? I bet you’ve grown a bit height than last year =P. Today is our 5th anniversary, you remember? Yaay, congratulation shinee!! ^^. Sorry I can’t celebrate with you guys.
How’s Taemin and Minho? Are they getting better? I’m confident they are getting better though, how old they are actually, get rid of those shyness auras guys XD. Ah, is Taemin regularly eating, please remind him if he isn’t. Hey Taemin! Jinki hyung is watching over you, be prepared, be a good kid ^^. Minho, you too, don’t overwork yourself. And tell that to Jinki hyung as well because he won’t listen to me, I already told him like hundred times =,=.
This year also I wonder about Jonghyun, does he already get his driving license? Or not yet, I still clearly remember about him broken his parent’s car. We sat at the back when he tried to park the car that night, unfortunately he didn’t see his front LOL… do you remember his face? I will laugh each time I remembered, he had those widened eyes and lousy screamed when he realized he actually hit the edge of the gate. He had to spend some money in order to repair the car’s front light and windows, careless stupid. xD but yeah, hopefully he will get the driving license sooner or later, I knew he die for it.
How are the schedules? Tell our manager to arrange some free days (or months Xp), you deserve it, no... We deserve it ^0^. I’m sorry I can’t accompany you to go to Daegu. How about you go there by yourself and meet my parents, so you guys can talk longer. Uhm... I really hope you could meet them at least once. They like oranges, go buy some before visiting them =P.
Hyuung, I miss you so much that you can’t imagine. Or did you miss me much more and I couldn’t imagine? Hahah, I’m making no sense here. Okay, I still miss you though. How are you? Healthy? Please take good care of yourself. Hyung, I can’t make any spicy chicken for you anymore, but that doesn’t mean you couldn’t buy that at some restaurants. I really hope you miss my cooking =D. Ah! please find the recipe of that spicy chicken inside the other envelope, don’t mix between sugar and salt, and you have to remember that there is instant pepper sell in the stores, you don’t need to blend it again (>o<). Ask Jonghyun for help, I’ve taught him once about cooking chicken. Hopefully he’d still remember. ^^
Jinki hyung, what did I miss? I believe many things had happened. I just wished you could write a replied letter to me. Addressed to whom? Just write To Kibum at the edge of the envelope, I will knew that you’ve wrote that for me. I don’t need to open it though, I knew what’s inside already, yes, I can read the letter inside one closed envelope, I’m such an almighty you guys already knew about that XP.
Jinki hyung, I’m sorry for all the troubles I’ve caused before. You’ve been a great leader for me. You taught me a lot of things, a lot of things that I could remember. You like my own big brother, and maybe more than that, but I’m just glad we’re not related, really. Hyung… I wish I could turn back the time. I hope to be able to hear you singing once again. And see you tripped at some stage, well… your clumsiness win my heart haha.
Hyung, it’s me who sent you two chocolates boxes at your birthday. I said I didn’t know who sent them to you, sorry again for being a liar before. I knew you like cashew flavored, that’s why I bought two for you. Thanks for eating them up ^^.
Oh! It’s already too long, I can’t believe I just wrote long letter. Okay, I don’t want to make it quick but I have to.
One question, Can you not forget me? I hope you could remember me in your heart, but its okay even if it’s only in your mind. I still want to be remembered though. Sorry for being selfish, Hyung.
I don’t want to be sound so cheesy but you have to know… I’m sorry I can’t tell you until now… yeah, maybe you already know. I knew it. Damn it, come on Kibum. Just write it!! >0<…
…
I love you, Lee Jinki.
… Phew. My confession at last >.<… maybe I was thinking too much before so that I couldn’t tell you a thing. I could only give you some signals. And I was wrong, because it’s you whom I’ve sent the signals to. I should have been more straight =P haha.
Yes, this is it. My intention is only to confess to you in the beginning, but it seems longer that it should be when I wrote it. Now, I have nothing left to tell, I just regret that I couldn’t say it by seeing you in person. I’m sorry Jinki hyung, I really wish I could turn back the time. You know, nobody can.
Hyung, I’ll be going first. Please tell Jonghyun, Taemin, and Minho that I will always remember them. I’m going to miss them much. And you much more =D... Hyung, I’m sorry I’m not that strong. I’m sorry for letting this illness killing me. I’ve tried my best, but sometimes it just won’t go your way. I’m sorry I could only write in computer, I didn’t have enough strength to use a pen.
Last and the least,
Goodbye, Jinki Hyung and thank you.
With Love
Kibum.
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Kibum’s condition was getting worse each day. And today, at Shinee's 5th anniversary, Kibum’s giving up. He rests in a deep sleep. Sleep that he will never be able to wake up anymore.
The letter Kibum’s left is at Jinki’s hand, soaked, from tears. If only Jinki could turn back the time, if only Jinki was brave enough.
Jinki lets his tears fall down his cheeks. He closes his eyes, holding back his tears as he breathes deeply.
I’ve loved you since the beginning.
If only Jinki was brave enough, Kibum would be able to hear it.
-The end-
Yes, this is shinee fic. from whom i got my fandom back. ^^
hope you like this. enjoy reading.