GOOD MORNING TO EVERYBODY
Okay, so I had a great nights sleep... and I'm in a purty good mood right now... so I'm kinda... happy and giggly, which IS good thing, I suppose.
Work has been going all right. I have little hours right now which ticks me off. Katy has her hours again... *sighs* She's been working at the bakery for 5 years.... so of course Michelle would keep Katy's hours like that. I'm new and all... so... yeah. I'm just a substitute for Katy when Katy can't work those hours. Maybe I can work as a secretary for my dad. :p That'd be an unforgettable experience. :)
I have been talking a lot more with Tina lately... it HAS been nice... :) I miss her so much and need her right now. Just to talk to her... and be with her... have her listen to me! Would be great! But yeah. Uhm...
she's bringing her lappy!!! We will get to watch DVDs together... YAY! lol.
Oh... and shop together... I kinda miss that where we comment on each other's clothes and stuff. I'm gonna be bold and courageous and step foot in american eagle and try a size lower than what my jeans normally are. *sighs* scary... I'm scared.... but all wells. Uhm... yeah, I love american eagle jeans... though they ARE very expensive. I remember one time I spent like... 43 dollars on one of my fav. pairs of jeans. That's ridiculous. lol. But I wore those jeans a lot... so it was worth it. I think I'm gonna pass them down to Tina... she'll get more clothes. yay yay for new clothes. yay! :)
Libby and I have been talking a lot too. The other day we took a flanel sheet and lied down in the grass with pillows... books... and music... and we sunbathed and talked... then read.... and talked. It was awesome!!! Talk about sister quality time.. yeah, baby. Uhm... yeah... I want all of us sisters... Natalie, Tina, Libby, and I to go sunbathing outside TOGETHER when she comes. eeeekkkk.... exciting... exciting.... exciting... :D
I love my sisters! I love my family!!! No one can take them from me... and I'm so grateful that God made me to be a part of THIS FAMILY and no other family. Cuz even though we go through... bad times... hard times.... it always brings us closer together. And even if we stay mad at each other or wanna run away... we get over it... sometimes. haha. Greece were the hardest years of my life... and then the year at Orlando, FL was one of the hardest too. I remember wanting to run away and everything. I remember in Greece I had my small bag with me with little stuff I needed and walked out the door.
HOWEVER... I look back at what God was doing... it's a growing experience. You know how God puts us through things to test us or have us put more faith and trust in HIM? Well, I think He was doing that A LOT with me... He still does it a lot. Just cuz He knows I don't place all my trust in Him all the time... He puts me through certain trials... that I need to... get over... and just... trust HIM... instead of going on by how I feel. So... it's a growing learning... maturing experience. And I like it... cuz I DO WANT TO GROW... I DO WANT TO ACT MATURE... OR BE MATURE... I WANT TO BE MORE GOD FEARING. My dad is like... on fire for God... I've always wanted to be like Him. He can't go a day without having quiet time. Even my "almost boyfriend" Chris told me that he can't go a day without spending time with God... and to me... that was like AWESOME. I told myself that I'd def. be with him cuz he... is on fire for God... and he wants to do something for God and I thought that was awesome. But those people like that... just... yeah make me wanna be like them. I want to have quiet time... I try my best to have quiet time everyday... but it ends up more like... a few times a week. sad... *sighs* But when I do have quiet time... it's awesome... I put some worship music on... and read my Bible... write down some scripture and study the Word! That way I have the verses written down when I wanna look at it again... But anyways!
I remember this older man made this comment about us sisters. He said "I knew that you all were a missionary family by how close you are with each other..." that actually made us feel good... that we are not like some other siblings that hate each other or don't have a friendship with each other. I like it that we are so close... I like it that I can even go to my parents sometimes and just talk to them... and they can HELP ME. It's great. :)
Yesterday... I decided to go to the church and see Julie. And she was with Jon and I got to see Jon too. I haven't seen Jon in forever, so it was good seeing him again! :) Julie ran up to me and squeezed me tight. hehe! And we talked about stuff... what was happening. *sighs* Uhm... yeah.
But yeah! We told each other we need to go to Khols and shop there... cuz the clothes she had on were amazing... I got jealous. But it's okay... I have new shirts and stuff right now. I feel like... yeah... I have a new wardrobe or something. Christina is gonna have loads of fun wearing my new things when she gets here. lol. Yes, Christina... you CAN wear some of my clothes. I won't be selfish with them. Well, maybe with one I will be selfish with. But the rest... knock yourself out... :p
I need to throw out these jeans I've had... for about two years... they are getting holes in them and stuff. They are the american eagle jeans with the hole in the knee. I LOVE THOSE. They used to be my fav. pair. :) Uhm.... and I wore them last night. I felt pretty good about myself! :) I noticed that... and I felt like... my self esteem kicked up a bit. That was exciting. I went out with no makeup too and had my hair pulled up cuz it was still wet.. and I still didn't care that much. :D I think that's a good thing...
And I DID realize... that when Jesse is over here... I feel a lot better about myself than I usually do. And when he is over and I look in the mirror... I see someone... prettier than what I do see when he wasn't in my life... or when he isn't over here. It's... a strange feeling. Hmmm.... just thought I'd share it with you all.
uuuhhhmmm I might be going to his place this weekend cuz there is this apple blossom thing... and a parade or whatever that happens once a year and yeah... he wants me to with him. And he got some extra money this week from modeling and stuff... it should be fine gas wise and stuff. I dunno. Hmmm... yeah. But I would like to go! I'm gonna ask my dad if I can go. Cuz it'd be awesome. :D And theeeennnnn....... it'll be my last week working at ASPEN *sniffs*... annnddd... yeah... tina comes tues. evening. I won't see her till after work but... I WILL SEE HER! eekkk! hehe! :) *sighs*... YAY! hehe! otaaayyy... I'll stop typing...
love to all of you!
<3
Comment me if you'd like...
Philippians 4:13 "I can do all things through Him who strengthens me."
Work has been going all right. I have little hours right now which ticks me off. Katy has her hours again... *sighs* She's been working at the bakery for 5 years.... so of course Michelle would keep Katy's hours like that. I'm new and all... so... yeah. I'm just a substitute for Katy when Katy can't work those hours. Maybe I can work as a secretary for my dad. :p That'd be an unforgettable experience. :)
I have been talking a lot more with Tina lately... it HAS been nice... :) I miss her so much and need her right now. Just to talk to her... and be with her... have her listen to me! Would be great! But yeah. Uhm...
she's bringing her lappy!!! We will get to watch DVDs together... YAY! lol.
Oh... and shop together... I kinda miss that where we comment on each other's clothes and stuff. I'm gonna be bold and courageous and step foot in american eagle and try a size lower than what my jeans normally are. *sighs* scary... I'm scared.... but all wells. Uhm... yeah, I love american eagle jeans... though they ARE very expensive. I remember one time I spent like... 43 dollars on one of my fav. pairs of jeans. That's ridiculous. lol. But I wore those jeans a lot... so it was worth it. I think I'm gonna pass them down to Tina... she'll get more clothes. yay yay for new clothes. yay! :)
Libby and I have been talking a lot too. The other day we took a flanel sheet and lied down in the grass with pillows... books... and music... and we sunbathed and talked... then read.... and talked. It was awesome!!! Talk about sister quality time.. yeah, baby. Uhm... yeah... I want all of us sisters... Natalie, Tina, Libby, and I to go sunbathing outside TOGETHER when she comes. eeeekkkk.... exciting... exciting.... exciting... :D
I love my sisters! I love my family!!! No one can take them from me... and I'm so grateful that God made me to be a part of THIS FAMILY and no other family. Cuz even though we go through... bad times... hard times.... it always brings us closer together. And even if we stay mad at each other or wanna run away... we get over it... sometimes. haha. Greece were the hardest years of my life... and then the year at Orlando, FL was one of the hardest too. I remember wanting to run away and everything. I remember in Greece I had my small bag with me with little stuff I needed and walked out the door.
HOWEVER... I look back at what God was doing... it's a growing experience. You know how God puts us through things to test us or have us put more faith and trust in HIM? Well, I think He was doing that A LOT with me... He still does it a lot. Just cuz He knows I don't place all my trust in Him all the time... He puts me through certain trials... that I need to... get over... and just... trust HIM... instead of going on by how I feel. So... it's a growing learning... maturing experience. And I like it... cuz I DO WANT TO GROW... I DO WANT TO ACT MATURE... OR BE MATURE... I WANT TO BE MORE GOD FEARING. My dad is like... on fire for God... I've always wanted to be like Him. He can't go a day without having quiet time. Even my "almost boyfriend" Chris told me that he can't go a day without spending time with God... and to me... that was like AWESOME. I told myself that I'd def. be with him cuz he... is on fire for God... and he wants to do something for God and I thought that was awesome. But those people like that... just... yeah make me wanna be like them. I want to have quiet time... I try my best to have quiet time everyday... but it ends up more like... a few times a week. sad... *sighs* But when I do have quiet time... it's awesome... I put some worship music on... and read my Bible... write down some scripture and study the Word! That way I have the verses written down when I wanna look at it again... But anyways!
I remember this older man made this comment about us sisters. He said "I knew that you all were a missionary family by how close you are with each other..." that actually made us feel good... that we are not like some other siblings that hate each other or don't have a friendship with each other. I like it that we are so close... I like it that I can even go to my parents sometimes and just talk to them... and they can HELP ME. It's great. :)
Yesterday... I decided to go to the church and see Julie. And she was with Jon and I got to see Jon too. I haven't seen Jon in forever, so it was good seeing him again! :) Julie ran up to me and squeezed me tight. hehe! And we talked about stuff... what was happening. *sighs* Uhm... yeah.
But yeah! We told each other we need to go to Khols and shop there... cuz the clothes she had on were amazing... I got jealous. But it's okay... I have new shirts and stuff right now. I feel like... yeah... I have a new wardrobe or something. Christina is gonna have loads of fun wearing my new things when she gets here. lol. Yes, Christina... you CAN wear some of my clothes. I won't be selfish with them. Well, maybe with one I will be selfish with. But the rest... knock yourself out... :p
I need to throw out these jeans I've had... for about two years... they are getting holes in them and stuff. They are the american eagle jeans with the hole in the knee. I LOVE THOSE. They used to be my fav. pair. :) Uhm.... and I wore them last night. I felt pretty good about myself! :) I noticed that... and I felt like... my self esteem kicked up a bit. That was exciting. I went out with no makeup too and had my hair pulled up cuz it was still wet.. and I still didn't care that much. :D I think that's a good thing...
And I DID realize... that when Jesse is over here... I feel a lot better about myself than I usually do. And when he is over and I look in the mirror... I see someone... prettier than what I do see when he wasn't in my life... or when he isn't over here. It's... a strange feeling. Hmmm.... just thought I'd share it with you all.
uuuhhhmmm I might be going to his place this weekend cuz there is this apple blossom thing... and a parade or whatever that happens once a year and yeah... he wants me to with him. And he got some extra money this week from modeling and stuff... it should be fine gas wise and stuff. I dunno. Hmmm... yeah. But I would like to go! I'm gonna ask my dad if I can go. Cuz it'd be awesome. :D And theeeennnnn....... it'll be my last week working at ASPEN *sniffs*... annnddd... yeah... tina comes tues. evening. I won't see her till after work but... I WILL SEE HER! eekkk! hehe! :) *sighs*... YAY! hehe! otaaayyy... I'll stop typing...
love to all of you!
<3
Comment me if you'd like...
Philippians 4:13 "I can do all things through Him who strengthens me."